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| roof is leaking like a bitch, same spot, I will hire Craig if he will let me as soon as he knows - if I did it now, it would increase his pain, my knowing first - if I wait, he'll know I knew and even argued for someone else over him (he's not as @atrisk) - so anywhich way even tho we know we had NO MORE CONTROL, the severence was a union miracle, we know it might hurt too much to be around each other for his choosing how long |
and the therapist canceled
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| painfully earnest 💔 |
and the weather is shit
so
wake n bake and stay in bed, I figure. all day.
VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22). Creative growth depends upon showing up repeatedly. (aka breaking)
there might be a word for this feeling in another language. I can only describe it situationally: you've done an impossible job really well, and no one else could have done it, practically a miracle you figured out how to pull it off. It's your magic that did it. It took every kind of art you had. And because of you, people were seen, something saved or harmed less, and it mattered (that always matters).
in every fairy tale, without exception, magic comes at a cost.
the cost to that kind of magic is that you only feel what you couldn't do. everyone congratulating you while you just want to crawl into a quiet corner and lick your wounds alone to death.
in every fairy tale, without exception, magic comes at a cost.
the cost of that kind of magic is that you only feel what you could not do 💔
I know Brandon (a "he", Union) is feeling only that, is what I mean. not me. I am remembering it (or rendering it). thinking
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| thunderstorm = count the dogs piled up my ass a mile, everybody shaking like leaf |
