Saturday, September 26, 2009

baleD wilcox - god is on a bender

I'm still coughing up wads of self-pity, too recovered to die and too sick to consider that a good thing >:(

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I think I might have swine flu - I'm 1000 degrees and wondering delirious if flu is like labor pain, ie you think you might have it until you really do and then realize o it doesn't feel like you might die, it feels more like you already died and you're in hell and God is a dickhead. I hope so. Cuz I feel like I might die.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009


"Lifting belly what is earnest. Expecting an arena to be monumental.
Lifting belly is recognized to be the only spectacle present. Do you mean that.
Lifting belly is a language. . .
I want to tell about fire. Fire is that which we have when we have olive. Olive is a wood. We like linen. Linen is ordered. We are going to order linen.
All belly belly well.
Bed of coals made out of wood.
I think this one may be an expression. We can understand heating and burning composition. Heating with wood." - Gertrude Stein, "Lifting Belly"
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Today, Virgo, the future is your canvass, so get ready to paint your life on it. Begin the day by painting the background and save the details for last. Savoir every detail, because these may become the details you live by. You may have the opportunity to secure your future to your liking.
[is that how you spell canvas?] [wait a minute, is that how you spell savor? no, SAVOIR means 'capacity for appropriate action'. I can't spell for shit but I know stuff like what words mean, I'm an English professor - right?]
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It's the autumnal equinox today. The days of Virgo end when the days of summer end. I go fallow on the same day that the earth does, earthly thru and thru. I'm home sick with sick little boys today, all stuffy nosed and fever headachey. I had fallen asleep again in my little puddle of frumpy bluck when I woke to the sound of a ladder and thought it was a loud dream, but no, it was the Roofer Friend Guy clamoring up to inspect my mysterious and stubborn wood-killing leak. He says he'll come back in late October to "take a deep breath and open the can of worms", coincidentally when Saturn will be finally leaving my sign after nearly 3 years that I've been in karmic detention. I'm wondering hotheaded sleepily if today will have been the day I should have named him for the blog. RFG? Or something with a little Native mojo, i.e. "ShitsonWindshields"? Let me ask the 8-ball (pause): "Better not tell you now."

"Earthly Bodies," J. Tillman - love the Gertrudey first verse

Sunday, September 20, 2009

houses made of "garbage"

I just can't get enough of this stuff. And I've made all the money I ever have by being a houseslut, so I just know that my being all hot and bothered by green building = $ and not just BaleD's animal magnetism. Buffalo is the #4th strongest housing market in the country and still appreciating faster than the national historic average. O, if only I could build shit! Mark my words, green+buffalo = worth a fortune.

Meanwhile, I adore the "treehouse", that woodburning stove is to die for:

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Saturday, September 19, 2009

too funny to be a horror story


been hanging out w Officer and MilknCookies. they have a firepit and a patio of pavers and an assortment of chairs and his/hers coolers stocked with beer and mango boozecoolers respectively. sometimes his friends come over and they tell stories of incredibly bad cop behaviors, all drunk and utterly retarded and sometimes very funny. and, inevitably, at times there is a notable equalizing of the party numbers by there being one man there without a woman attached to him (eyeroll) which is always annoying and yet kind of amusing to see reflected back at me what I come off as, measured by what I'm imagined paired with. clearly, I'm going up in value, generally speaking. if I'm "a professor" and/or "a yoga spiritual something person", there's pigeon chested IT guys and/or men whose sensitivity has yet to be appreciated. Officer tossed into the mix this weekend one of his oldest friends, with whom he has shared so much bad behavior that it could add up to a Jackass sequel. the theme of the night's stories was "shit", as in the time they made shitdip with ritz crackers for a party as a joke, the times they shit in one another's houseplants and bathroom sinks for a joke, etc. my favorite: the time the friend took a shit on the windshield of another friend's car, which was parked on Delaware Ave. in a busy traffic area, in broad daylight, and it turned out not to be the friend's car actually. hey, that and the guy is a roofer = my stock is rising with the neighbors, clearly, and I'm "a regular person" to them at this point. that's cool. but no chemistry between the guy and me, of course, as I sat on the other side of the gathering and hugged a shih tzu to me like body armor, and he drank vodka straight out of a tim hortons cup until he fell stone asleep sitting up and one of his friends picked his nose.

The Concretes - Miss You (it's a moka link so you have to rt click save to open it, but it's a really good Stones cover)

Friday, September 18, 2009

The fish died.

WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: You hold a loved one in high esteem, and it shows in your actions. TAURUS: You will be treated in a way that makes you feel important and valued. GEMINI: It's time for you to advance the ball in a relationship. CANCER: Work on the fundamentals of being happy, and your love life will naturally start to move in a favorable direction. LEO: Get some white space in your calendar. Too many activities will make you feel less loving. VIRGO: Share happy stories with a loved one, and steer clear of horror stories. LIBRA: You and a loved one are equals. Resolve together that neither will take the other for granted. SCORPIO: Avoid being too selfless, as it will backfire and you'll feel resentful. Do something just for you. SAGITTARIUS: Dream up a wonderful bit of fun you can have with a partner, and then make it happen. CAPRICORN: You'll express appreciation to a certain someone and will receive lots of love in return. AQUARIUS: You're open to suggestions, and you'll be around someone who has some truly great ones! PISCES: Someone wants to hear your stories and asks all the right questions to get you to open up.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Friday, Sept. 18, brings the new moon in Virgo, the most productive moon of the year. This is the perfect start date to launch an organizational, fitness or life makeover project. Create a ritual to celebrate your new beginning and to energize your endeavor and give it the best chance of succeeding. Air signs: (Gemini, Libra, Aquarius) Those born under the air element respond beautifully to breathing exercises. With a pen, divide a piece of notebook paper into two columns. Label one side "in" and one side "out." On the "in" side, list the behaviors, habits, things and people you will be adding to your world. On the "out" side, list what you will leave behind in order to make room for the new. Then quietly sit and consciously breathe in an item from your "in" list and out an item from your "out" list. Work through the whole list and repeat. Water signs: (Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces) Have you ever tossed coins into a wishing well? This works like magic for water signs. You can vary the ritual by wishing on pebbles and then throwing them into the sea, a lake or a fountain. Fire signs: (Aries, Leo, Sagittarius): In order to move forward with your new plan, you'll need to let go of other things that have been taking the place of these actions. What will you be saying "no" to in order to say "yes" to your new life? List those activities, feelings and people on a piece of paper. Write a formal goodbye letter to your "no" activities. Say your ending salutation out loud, and toss the paper into the lit fireplace or fire pit. Earth signs (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn): Choose a few small symbols of your old life, as well as a few symbols of your new life. Find a patch of earth and dig a hole. Bury the symbols of your old life in the ground, all the while saying goodbye. Place the symbols of your new life on a shelf or other place where you will see them often and daily.

Future Love Paradise - Seal

Wednesday, September 16, 2009



tj couldn't take his eyes off this, fascinated and horrified and mystified altogether

Sunday, September 13, 2009




This town breaks into festivals every other weekend all summer long, food and rides and tents and music emerging into place as if up out of the ground. Peaches came into season, so it’s the Peach Festival. Fried dough, hot dogs, souvlaki served up by St. George volunteers, peach cobbler and peach pop, maple lollipops and maple cotton candy . . . and the tilt-o-whirl, on which TJ yells out in glee “my penis feels tickley!” The bandstand goes all day, all night, with “Lady Line Dancers” in sequined outfits, gloved girls dancing to “Beat It” in competition for the title of Peach Queen. We won a fish by getting the ball into the libray fundraising bowl, and we named him Silver. Finally the Elvis impersonator takes the stage as we walk off toward the dregs of sunset over Lake Ontario. Ears looks out at the waterhorizon, so big it scares him and he leans into me, "It makes me feel like everything might end."




Saturday, September 12, 2009

"Rain," Anjulie

" . . . this glowing mountain heart reminds me of you."
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But if I can bear the nights, the days are a pleasure. I walk out; I see something, some event that would otherwise have been utterly missed or lost; or something sees me, some enormous power brushes me with its clean wing, and I resound like a beaten bell.
Annie Dillard, Pilgram at Tinker Creek
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Love. The black hook. The spear singing through the mind. . . . I was rippling gold. My breasts were bare and my nipples flashed and winked. Diamonds tipped them. I could walk through panes of glass. I could walk through windows.
Louise Erdrich, 'Saint Marie'
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Gabor Szabo, guitar; Ron Carter, bass; Willie Bobo and Victor Pantoja, percussion; Chico Hamilton, drums "Spellbinder"

Friday, September 11, 2009


WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: You're a great conversationalist when you ask questions and give the floor to others. TAURUS: You'll say things in the proper way in order to preserve someone's feelings and show respect. GEMINI: This very minute, the one you want is seeking you, too. CANCER: You'll have positive conversations that motivate others. LEO: To have fun -- that is a noble purpose. Any move you make toward that end will contribute to your legacy. VIRGO: Ask for what you need and you will be answered with action that improves your quality of life. LIBRA: Doing what makes you happy brings you together with potential partners or closer to an existing partner. SCORPIO: Keep your own secrets! SAGITTARIUS: You'll be running errands for a loved one. Make sure this person is aware of all you do and doesn't take you for granted. CAPRICORN: Write a love letter to yourself. This will raise your self-esteem and attractiveness. AQUARIUS: You don't mind putting time into making sure your loved one is happy. After all, your relationships deserve to be handled with care. PISCES: Ask open-ended questions and you'll learn fascinating new information about someone dear.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

The Environment Report: A House Made of Straw




This is the story on npr this morning about BaleD's house - He loves those boulders he thought up, and they are pretty nifty. I wish they'd have talked about how the house is going to produce a paycheck from the utility companies for its owner, and about how breathtaking it is to be in . . . The pic above is the view in the house from the loft bedroom, through the trees he widdled into columns and the railing he made of cable (kinda hard to see bc they glint the sun), of the "tree carving" he gouged (with his finger?) into the plaster as it dried.


Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Sunday, September 06, 2009

city and colour - what makes a man [if you might know, tell me]
gomez - see the world
joe purdy - day lament

for Virgo: If you want to learn how to do something like have a lasting, happy relationship, you have to practice. Relationships need to be cared for and tended to just like a garden. One way to learn is to ask advice from a friend - they may have all the answers you are looking for.

[I gardened alllllll day in the perfect cool sunshine. Adonis butterfly bush, delphiniums, blue geraniums, bluebeard, coral bells in citrine and purple, roses, phlox, bee balm, spurge, hardy mums, red sedum, honey suckle, solomon seal, ligularia. Alone.]

Saturday, September 05, 2009


went to a summer culmination thing tonight - I brought the easiest part, wine and chocolate, bc I was at a funeral this week then sick bla bla - the others brought music and whole gardens full of dried flowers and oils and herbs and intentions . . . we all demanded what we'll get in the year to come. then we did the 'thanks' for what we have part, and everyone including me had to agree that I've got an eviable lot. great kids, great friends, great job, great house, great health, knock on wood. it was mostly a love-missing thing tonight, regarding people lost or not yet found or gone off, etc. but even still, I've got a windfall of blessings and I had no trouble imagining what's missing either, which seems like some kind of blessing in its way too. it's better than having ________ there in your mind/heart.
p.s. Here's a short list of suggested activities to make the most of the next few hours: Clean, sort, talk to friends, e-mail, handle business, send out the mail, organize, pay bills, handle transportation issues and charge your phone. Mercury goes retrograde Sunday, and for the rest of the month, it might be more challenging to get to some of these tasks.

Friday, September 04, 2009


The full Pisces moon tonight offers spiritual awakening. As with most natural processes, this one is not to be forced. We need only to be open to experiencing a different kind of awareness, however momentary it may be. This is not designed to be a lasting state. Let your mind expand and contract as you breathe in the passing moments.
WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: You find new things to appreciate in the one you've known forever. TAURUS: Your eye for quality will be useful to those who don't know the difference. GEMINI: You warm people up and get them talking. You'll be asked to accompany a shy individual. CANCER: You have abilities that you don't even consider talents until someone points it out to you on Saturday. LEO: Be thoughtful as you relate to family. It will now affect all of your relationships. VIRGO: Having a bit of ego will serve you well. You deserve to be noticed and will be. LIBRA: Move your body. You're as lucky in love as you are active. SCORPIO: Your attention to current styles will pay off. You're seen as fresh and interesting. SAGITTARIUS: You'll be accepted in a whole new world. CAPRICORN: The ones who know you well might be so used to your ideas that they don't react much. But someone finds you always exciting. AQUARIUS: You know what you want, so go where it is and get what you came for. PISCES: You are protective of a certain sweet loved one, though this one might not be as innocent as you think.