Nebraska is all about handfasting suddenly 🙄🤣 No. I am more wary of a contract with no instructions for ending. On a longer time horizon of a lifetime, DO I/we know how that turns out? I remain. You remain. Alive. 

very alive

Right back to it. 

workplace environment

On campuses everywhere, students are trying to go scorched earth over crimes against humanity, and here everybody is having a meltdown over a sex doll, which really didn't go over well, shocking no one except the new Big D,  Big C (lemo). That lady's been good to me but oof. Ya know they mail the sexdoll in a box to her speaking gigs? And then they take her outa there and then, like, you have to be nice to her/it (more pronouns, oi). As if all academic spaces weren't stressed out enough you had to throw a fetish for making everybody laugh miserably, as if yoked to a perpetual required cocktail party with robots who must be entertained. 🤦🏻‍♀️😖🤨🙄

IDK - phoebe green

 

I got on the floor to play with the baby. They utterly lost their minds. Dball cried over me licking the top of my head my face my feet, on and on. J-Joplin let loose about a gallon of piss, about which I was super pissed off (!)  but in retrospect I think that was PTSD ie I'm not the only one, duh. They lived through a near fatal fall down a flight of stairs AND a home invasion that we humans only interrupted and paid for ... why did I think they wouldn't have a lot to say about all that trauma (too)? Theirs was way worse, really. I only had to be dead through the fall thing (who would care for them after?), and I wasn't taken hostage in the home invasion (I just had to come home to a broken home after the fact). When I think about it all from their point of view, it makes me sick to my stomach for real 

in honor of a coworker

The day my department voted to rebrand as Health Humanities, becoming the first dedicated undergrad humanities department for pathways into health professions and osteopathic medicine. Think about it this way: every nurse and doctor outa here will have heard Bob Dylan and been taught that health is a human right, forever more until I leave or die. Then I came home and celebrated with my littles.

ouch : worth it

wargirl - sass girl

bonus - neil young down by the river (such a pretty version)
 

Ears ❤️ Sarahconnor 

paperboss, before/after

Finally took Sarahconnor out for a spin. She isn't a gun, she's a fucking cannon. You can't imagine how loud is her kaboom in person 🥰 so satisfying. Still, kinda overkill for the purposes of self-defense (until the apocalypse), so Ears and I signed up for the pistol class in June. I took a shine to the pistols that you pull back on the top that make that very satisfying sound. Ears likes the revolvers. He was a better shot by far - I just took the target out at the hip and blew the top of his skull off - but he jammed the gun when doing the loading-the-chamber sound thing. I did that part with absolutely certainty 🥰 c'mon could it be any kind of surprise that priming a gratifyingly sturdy shooter would be deadcenter in my wheelhouse? 

bonus track, modern kosmology - jane weaver

sarah-c recoil bruising
(I want more)

scrapbooking

home to Phoenix to Omaha/home via workworkwork - I don't know how to narrate all that happened, is happening, don't have time for words

eric avery

Museum quality art, he just brought it in a pile like a crazy angel genius, he made everyone cry. Then let Nebraska have this piece for me because I loved it so. 

https://www.ericaveryartist.com/

 

Vid

Influenzah (as my Dr pronounces it, with an eastern Euro flourish), sinus infection, ear infection, a bloody nose for days. Apparently some people are getting this combo enough to "walk around limping like old man" (so don't whine). I'm pretty sure it's the steroids what're making me all of a sudden awash with mad grief, crying my head off. It feels kinda good. Like I needed to take a massive griefshit. Saline loosening the dried sticky blood. I'm so sad, I'm mad.

hint- if you get the flu, don't lie around watching the news, cz even if you think you're not paying attention, *it gets in there*, then if you have to take steroids, and your feelings get really big, you'll have to rip your dress like a Greek lady and wail for the world :/

ginger billy ft nokei midi - have mercy  

butt to butt (day 9)

sugar thieves - ain't you proud  

"Hidden Lake", guarded by trees that burned alive then got bleached by the water that isn't there except when it floods

eagle nest

day moon over eagles

  Nebraska landscapes are intense.