Transformation: In tarot, the [Friday the] 13th card is "Death," which signifies transformation, rebirth, and the end of old cycles, rather than literal demise. 

"hair of the eclipse dog"

mystic woman - ian elliot

 

lover I'm gonna miss you - noah derksen ft may erlewine

re lent 🤐, scrapbooking only

card of the day again - my mother, what she needs from and for me

water of love - dire straights

 I re lent.

in my feelings - moveek & feist

(can't) find your way out - the franklin electric
 

"fire horse flirt"
digital ft found-art collage

scrapbooking

solar plexus tea

medicinal "strawberry fucking milk butter" recipe development. the sensory cue strawberry-and/in-something works like an involuntary brainsmile - but it can't smell like that except when warm, and otherwise gotta soak into skin / disappear (like magic)

this butter playlist makes the "oo oo oo" dancebeat sounds - black magic  sample

challenge, strawberry elixir dyes the skin like henna

"yeah thanks ... I mean, if I have to be here it's the least you could do, but ok yep thanks" 

she ate her winter feelings

 

"I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or the look or the words, which laid the foundation. It is too long ago. I was in the middle before I knew that I had begun." — Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen

Your persistence matters most. Stay in the story until things go your way. It's the happy ending that decides the genre.  (like Jane Austen)

bango song - mumford n sons ft BBC orchestra 

mary ft mary candle, glass collage

dancing barefoot - patti smith

What does it mean to be young at heart? Not a performance of innocence, but a willingness to meet life as though it were a brand-new world with the heart's original courage: to want, to initiate, to risk delight. Think you already know? Maybe just forget it for a moment, long enough to begin again, trading weariness for wonder.

scrapbooking

first warm sun

fog

oops

still in process

wallpaper ft kaposi ft princesses

empty handed - ariel posen ft city and colour from dancing alone in the kitchen playlist 

garbage picking

spring haircuts

rehab trumps lent

I'm glad they're keeping him away from alllll of us. He needs time for straight talk with himself, on himself, for himself, uninterrupted by "managing the messages" for anyone else. To the best of my knowledge, he has not taken any real time to look at his own well being, to care for that person truly vs minimally necessary. And that is what I want for him. 

MY rehab plan (alanon classico): 

Daily: one sensory pleasure.

Weekly: one small adventure.

Zero: emotional management of him

my tarot card (8 wands) : Stay free until the wanting feels clean.

I trust my father, so I armed him with my athame to boot - keep slashing twatever needs it, Dad ❤️

including me