Monday, February 28, 2011

Saturday, February 26, 2011

The Sun, Mercury and Mars' arrival in your relationship sector over the course of the last 7 days has put a lot of attention on your relationships, but it's your romantic situation that is most urgent. With Venus leaving your romantic sector in 4 days and the North Node in 6 days time, a sense of urgency might be turning into a sense of pressure.

Friday, February 25, 2011




WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: You'll discover a way to advertise your strengths without talking about them. TAURUS: You will be clever and resourceful when it comes to getting the romantic attention you desire. GEMINI: You'll be put in charge of joint responsibilities. It feels great to know that your partner trusts and relies on you. CANCER: You will find love while enjoying cultural exchanges and/or travel. LEO: You'll work with a loved one to accomplish a task that is meaningful to both of you. VIRGO: Your assessment of your own attractive qualities is far more modest than a loved one would conclude. LIBRA: You'll suddenly shift gears in a relationship. You are in charge of the pacing of this journey. SCORPIO: You may take the opposite point of view from that of your loved one, just to keep things interesting. SAGITTARIUS: You'll accept the rules of a loved one's game and play it well. CAPRICORN: You may fantasize about certain aspects of the object of your affection. Realities are better than fantasies. AQUARIUS: Someone finds your unorthodox ideas and methods both fascinating and wildly attractive. PISCES: Share your philosophy with a loved one, and see where his or her beliefs connect with yours.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

mwa ha ha, love it when the DudleyDoRights are worrying their pretty heads about us RustBuckets. if the Sabres manage to beat that deadline, I'm going to walk down to the river and moon Canada

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I toured the new yoga studio today - it's going to be awesome, HUGE and surrounded by massage therapy and juice bar and meditation center . . I'm going to teach there, negotiated as "tell me what ya got (for me) and I'll either be okay with that or not, end of negotiation". I like that kind of negotation, no pussyfooting around or pointless drama.

I'm no fan of the climate change that's rocking every corner of the planet. In fact, I oppose it; I protest it; I resist it. However, I do need to acknowledge that there is at least one upside: The world is becoming more fragrant. Scientists say that as carbon dioxide levels rise, plants will release more aromatic chemicals known as "biogenic volatile organic compounds." The smell of growing vegetation could intensify by as much as 40 percent in the coming decades. This situation is not a precise metaphorical match for your upcoming destiny, Virgo, but I do see some similarities. Things are going to be getting hotter for you, emotionally speaking -- and that will be stimulating, often even pleasurable, to your senses.
VIRGO You'll be bargaining for what you want. It is only when you are really willing to lose the deal that you are in a good place to negotiate. Remind yourself how strong you are on your own.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Have you ever tried to send a message telepathically? You'll have luck with this type of communication during Mercury's transit through Pisces, which lasts until March 9, 2011. And here's another fun communication game: Meet with friends, celebrities, historical figures, dead ancestors or anyone at all on the astral plane of your imagination.

just think what I might have to say to you if I could just drill a hole in the side of your head and go right on in

Thursday, February 17, 2011

my mother is blathering nonstop poetry jam style telling me about something called 'God adventures' where you ask God what he feels like doing that day and you do it, like, go to a nursing home or take the baby to a park or pool, at which point (as she has repeatedly done in circles no matter what the actual subject) she returns to the theme of what's troubling her which is that my nephew is not liked and called a piece of shit for waking up inconveniently ie for existing at all by his father. his father shrinks disgusted from his touch, he just can't like the child. my mother lives with my sister, she takes care of the baby. Alex is going to be 2 in May. she is going to get a hip replacement soon and is upset trying to find a nursing home in which to rehabilitate so that my sister won't have to leave the baby's side. ever. she says that she has not slept hardly at all and when she does she dreams badly about it and wakes up upset and seriously pissed off, for nearly a week.

this one isn't a dream.


the magnetic fields (remember "book of love"? it's long and boring, remember?)- strange powers

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Finally got to sleep around 6:30 then I dreamt a SWOT team of sorts landed at work and went through everything I did to determine where I'd committed fraud. Today is one of the Madame President days, so, yeah, I guess my brain just wanted to freak myself the fuck out in particular w that dream. So tired.
reading "The Mind at Night", a book I checked out of the library. dreams like the ones I've been having mean that the wrong parts of my brain are lighting up when I'm asleep. not good.

it's now 4:45, I've been awake since 1. not good.
brett dennen - always been stubborn and late to bloom - another you'll like (tho I'm still hating you)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

very tired, my post-work nap is like a sudden temporary coma, and I dream: that I've come to stay with my sister for a visit, like someone does when they have to for some reason, after a calamity. She is 34 yrs old. She has a daughter, who is a little odd and quiet, she's a young teen (14-15) - the niece's best friend is a small boy, much younger than she is, very pale with thick auburn hair, they run past me and out to play as I enter a room to talk with my sister. My sister looks very like my friend Laura from highschool, not like my real sister at all. She wants to know what is to be done with the baby. I think she means that her daughter is pregnant, and she does, but she wants to know what I did with mine. She says before I leave, that I should tell her what I did with it so that she can track it down. I'm stunned, I feel suddenly very sick and frightened, my heart is pounding. I think I never had that baby but I didn't know anything about a baby at all until that very second - I say only "I'm stunned." She smiles and says she wanted to take from my mind what she needed before I could hide it, and that "at 34 years old, the most developed survival skill in a human being is the manipulation of others."


in real life, the wind knocked me sideways and I lost my balance and shut the hatchback onto my own head. really hard.
they took down all the trees, all the shade, all the green space was gone, my garden beds were squeezed dried into lifeless blocks of chalk. I went back inside to the attic where there was another chalk block, like a tomb, and a big mess someone else had left. I grew angry, outraged, then quiet. I started cleaning, righting things again, deciding I'd make it all perfect again, add organic matter to the beds and plant them again, it would all be even better than before, beautiful, but I'd piss on it in the corners to mark it and nobody would be able to live there cz my rage-smell would haunt the place forever

Sunday, February 13, 2011

acetylchlodine - a chemical in your brain that makes you dream and that reacts if anything is wrong w you causing several different kinds of ("yikes!") seizures and alzeimers is correlated to the lack of enough of it.

(my poetic intepretation of that is that it's in charge of knowing shit that your conscious mind can't or won't, like memories in your fault/vault and/or that your horse is gonna die.)
There are, therefore, many possibilities if you dream of a fish - all good, even if the fish was a greatly feared one like the shark. If there is a possibility of a pregnancy, dreaming of a fish could mean that a child is on the way, and the pregnancy and birth will be uneventful and result in a healthy baby. If the dreamer is in love but is not yet sure about the beloved's feelings, dreaming of a fish strongly indicates that the feelings are indeed reciprocated. Dreaming of catching fish, either with a pole or with a net, indicates success and prosperity ahead. Seeing fish swimming in a clear pool indicates that a number of secrets about yourself and the world around you are going to suddenly become clearer.
abumbratio: (n.) the shadow that death casts across your dreams when you get close enough to be in its shadow; an omen in a dream
there is such a thing as sleep yoga
nap. dreamt I went fishing and I pulled one in and was going to teach someone what to do next, but thousands of fish came next on the line and buried my yikes-yelling ass under a mountain of fish

>:/


I had a dream in which I lost Jasper in a large parking garage (my worst nightmares have parking garages in them, always slicked with ice/snow, kids sliding off of top levels of them) and he was stolen by someone in order to cast a dark spell on me, like voodoo.
I dreamt of a house filled with wood toys that would break if you touched them, and play one note of music then go silent forever - I was afraid to touch anything, and a musician I vaguely know (friend of Sunnie's) was there, he lived there trapped as by a witch in a fairy tale.
I dreamt Tony was pregnant, a nervous wreck, and we were in a drug store looking desperately for a test.
I dreamt I couldn't get money unless I committed to what I'd use it for, and I didn't want to commit, so I couldn't, so I starved - that one had music playing, "did something wrong - I'm only here in negative", and I woke up feeling like it had something to do with X, the way he always made me feel like I was doing something bad/wrong every minute of every day until I stopped doing, so I froze. I went looking for that song, and the site that had it linked on hype machine took me to this Morrissey thing instead. (what difference does it make?) (wonderful wooman) - I woke up in full panic
I dreamt of having to teach with fake tools instead of real magic ones, like you'd learn CPR on a dummy rather than a real person, my magic boxes were filled with only colors where tools should be, and I had to keep teaching anyway until that brought the tools back to me, "fake til you make it".


meanwhile, in real life my roof is leaking like a bitch - Sunnie's man is up there now, been up there since 10 this morning, with tar. he brought me a truffle too, for Valentines day.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

two shows again tonight. the last song of the night, at an all acoustics open mic show in a bar called The Wagon Wheel (wheel tables and a ladies room sign that says 'cow gals this'a way', etc), went out as "this song is for Gina" (omg I love her)

Friday, February 11, 2011

Chapter 2, Why Most Shit Isn't Worth Fighting About In The First Place Unless You Just Get Your Jollies Fighting I Suppose


(a haiku is 17 syllables, btw)

WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: You will not be able to improve anyone except yourself. Focus there, and you'll succeed. TAURUS: You'll follow another person's lead, and the guidance will be spot-on. GEMINI: You love it when someone tries to get to know you, but you hate it when someone pries into private matters. There's a fine line! CANCER: You are someone's best friend, and this person relies on you to listen and be supportive. LEO: You trust your loved ones, and you're happy that they have a life outside your relationship. VIRGO: Fresh faces will come into your life. You figure out quickly how to cast yourself in the best light, what to talk about and what not to talk about. [what to talk about, is probably not haiku] [I don't give a shit] (psst, that was 17 syllables) LIBRA: You'll find more and more reasons to smile as the weekend progresses. SCORPIO: You will find the perfect words to express your feelings to a loved one. SAGITTARIUS: What you've learned about business will help you in love. CAPRICORN: Even though you revel in solo efforts and love to have time to yourself, you still appreciate knowing that you are not alone. AQUARIUS: It's dangerous to let finances play too big a part in love relationships. PISCES: To a certain person, you are a complete fantasy.

Thursday, February 10, 2011



you see the punchline coming a million miles ahead, but it's still kinda funny/cute

I've been doing this Directed Study exchange of writing ideas - I'm supposed to come up with one idea/something a week. This morning, I'm thinking of a "relationship advice" book with haiku chapters.

Chapter 1, DUH

fuck before you fight
not the other way around
or you won't get laid

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

matt pond, pa - first light - you'll like this

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

VIRGO You have a high tolerance for discomfort and should by no means take advantage of this quality. You are as deserving of pleasure as anyone else. Indulge yourself.

Monday, February 07, 2011

vampire weekend - one blake's got a new face
found that one while I was looking for this one
robyn - crash and burn girl repost


today was one of the "review" days, when I (and 2 other tenured faculty) do the employee review interviews of the new people, and so today we're doing this religious studies dude. he's okay but very academic, ie uptidy and sure he's brilliant yet a nervous wreck and hateful of others as if their stupidity is the font from which his angst something flows. near the end, the socialogist asks, "Have you seen Air Guitar Nation?" he'd been talking about invisibility and verifiability as it pertains to faith. no, he had not. and she hadn't meant to be an asshole, she's just kinda nuts and apt to speak French to you even though you don't speak French. omg, afterwards the other two of us just could not stop laughing, and in the end, yes yes Mr Uptidy gets to stay and we were plotting to add "Hot Tub Time Machine" to the campus film festival . .


love this super bowl ad - the end cracked me up, "a teacher?!" hahahahahaahha

Saturday, February 05, 2011

VIRGO You have a high tolerance for discomfort, but that's no reason to submit yourself to unnecessary emotional pain. If someone is hurting your feelings, tell them and make them stop.

(pause)

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAAH why didn't I think of that?! hahem: hey everybody, knock it off.

hahahahahahhahaha eyeROLL

Atlas Sound - Drums and Pissing, high rec

Friday, February 04, 2011

WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: You're attractive because you have a magical energy about you that transcends the physical realm. TAURUS: You will give your loved one plenty of space, and yet this person sticks close by your side. GEMINI: It's nice to be needed, but not desperately needed. CANCER: You'll love the way a special someone will persuade you toward his or her wishes. LEO: A relationship is strong because you take the time to make it so. VIRGO: You are lovely inside and out, though it sometimes takes a pep talk in the mirror to remind yourself of this fact. LIBRA: When disagreeing with a loved one doesn't work, try agreeing instead. SCORPIO: The key to dating success is the same as any other success key: Make a plan and implement it. SAGITTARIUS: Self-love means staying on your own side and standing up for yourself! CAPRICORN: You will polish your attitude and shine as only you can. AQUARIUS: You make your loved ones laugh, and they will remember this glorious levity for years to come. PISCES: You will say the wise words that a loved one so needs to hear.

Thursday, February 03, 2011


In Leonard Cohen's song "Anthem," he sings "There is a crack in everything / That's how the light gets in." From what I can tell, Virgo, the week ahead will be one of the best times all year for welcoming the light that comes through the cracks. In fact, I urge you to consider widening the cracks a little -- maybe even splitting open a few new cracks -- so that the wildly healing light can pour down on you in profusion.
leonard cohen - anthem

Wednesday, February 02, 2011



(snowday youtubing)