drownings only happened 2x b4 said my relentless phone, I have no idea who just died. it's an interesting (odd) feeling (do nurses feel this?), freerange dread (faceless / raw) 

no body 

way too poetic cmon give me a fucking break 

(search for it [he/she/them anybody everybody] resumes in the a.m.)

turn the page, next ch of the book I am reading (I'm not making this up)

someone drowned in the lake. tonight, now, where I was supposed to be

....

.... that had to sink in a sec ...

I swim like a motherfucker, everyone knows that, that is literally the only thing they know about me there, I'da maybe gone right into that way too cold water. (probably)

wow

(throb throb throb, my heartbeat in my finger)