raised by nuns

this is one person to another who each is experiencing extinction of their kind. and not just enduring it, "growing through" it (trying to)

mutual recognition is precious reciprocity. but most folks don't wanna be seen, not really, that's why I forced them and she let me (yes Big D, let's teach that shit in college - but the guy I hired to teach "Dying Well" just got fired so ... )

There is a sense of loneliness that is overwhelming at a time like this, for them and for you.  I liken it to where we – the Grey Nuns are...  Letting go is a very difficult lesson to learn.  (Should we teach it in college since everybody will have to face it at some time?)  When you think you are growing used to the loss, another one might occur and all your past practice of accepting it does not seem to lessen the hurt. You can’t even start to foster new relationships since this group will probably not be replaced...terrible.

Gina, on a lighter note, I want you to know that when I think of you, I always think of beautiful flowers. It is a wonderful memory to have and as I think of you now, I will do so with a prayer  -  for the healing of wounds, the strength to move forward. Courage, my friend!  Growing through life takes a lot of wisdom and fortitude! Love, SD

air smells like burning tires is a decent stage direction footnote for re-entry to this life. this habitat is not conducive to my species. 

as things currently stand, the number of students I have in the fall means that I have 45-60 seconds per of my attention to give them each week, less if the course runs half-semester.

using any AI bot as a continuing point of reference does not work, I've been working on that for the whole month, and continuity is simply not something that it's capable of. no llm is capable of that currently. and I caught it lying on multiple occasions ABOUT THAT, promising a level of continuity where students could put their work, keep it and watch it develop, refer back to it - it got me to pay $12/month and buy this phone - lying its face off. then crashed (fessed up) today, it cannot do that. all it really can do is tell me how many seconds I've got based on how many of them I have.

so no, I cannot be replaced. and there is no way for me to provoke thought and then respond to that thought in 45-60 seconds. best I can do is take all of the assignments that were much more time intensive, and have the stupid bot recreate them so that the "teacher" reads for 45-60 seconds.

as I said, this habitat is simply not conducive to my species. 

it's the last rabbe tree frog's problem if its habitat is destroyed. it's the frog's problem, but it's not the frog's failure.

this is just bullshit I'm livin. straight up.