walls, 'dances with goddesses'

covered in bruises

michael kiwanuka - one more night

need ac lifted into the wimdow

Pretty good, except every time I try to get that storm window fixed some asshat tries to sell me vinyl replacements instead :/ 

Finally, here I am.

genre: texting workdudes

Him: I will be there tomorrow, I promise
Me: ok I left your check for work so far taped to the wall
Him: midmorning next wed to finish ok?
Me: promise?
Him: ha, yes
Me: ok, and can you move the rad covers out of my way till then? I would but I'm puny
Him: ...lol puny, good things in small packages right?
Me: yes?
Him: yes



The only thing I have refused is gifting my cabin porn book. The first thing I moved, into the usable shitter downstairs. They all want it but I say no, not unless you're gonna build me a cabin...

Lasts. Last minute doggy haircut, so they're fashionable for the new canine neighbors (2 cheewawas).

watching the exit

Last soaks in my old tub (the new one is twice as deep, but still, me and that tub go wayyy back)...

toenail color: Josephine Baker

a wet floor fit for tulip week

overdrawn in every way

check this out
"Kalliroy (called ‘Kay’ in the U.S.) Zaimes was born in Stenimahos, then part of Greece. This was also John Basil's father Bill's home town. Bill fought with the Greek Army during World War I, and after the war, emigrated to the U.S. After Bill Basil had been in America for a time, he returned to Greece to find a wife, and, of the many candidates presented by the townsfolk, he selected Kalliroy Zaimes. They married and came to the United States in 1926."

So he built the house for her. And she lived in it until she died, then left it to that church. In the house, their movie star friends came and went, says the neighbor.

bonus track

"When the Basil Brothers purchased the theater in 1943 for a "high six figures," they presented movies by Columbia and Universal pictures..."

paint swatches

"I don’t know that we are ever really okay in life, but there are times when we feel closer to it—when we don’t remember what it feels like to suffer. During these times we are moving forward in the void, forgetting we are going nowhere, so the void feels less daunting. We feel like we are handling shit. We are handling shit and doing work on ourselves. And then another person comes in, and meets us there, and we think we can handle it."~The Pisces

durings - painting done, floors pending, tub getting refinished today (better already)

People are hard (why are you so hard?). Projects I can handle.

I felt that in my sexual relationships with others I had missed the point...Maybe I had missed the point of what having a pussy was for entirely. It was not for having babies or pissing, but simply a locus of pleasure—its own purpose. Now a growing confidence was there, like a crystal inside it or maybe a whole ocean. Perhaps the crystal had always been there without me seeing or knowing. Had I always glowed from there but never realized? I felt glad to be alive. Or not even glad, just alive. I was in my is-ness and was not going to fight it. So this was joy. ~The Pisces

new rules -dua lipa

Got one contractor to come look at the sink situation mid busy day and all I got for that was hit on and not in a good way. I am so protected by my status in the day to day that I forget how rapey men can be. Then I had to give the speech at my boss's going away party in the afternoon, and, unnerved and out of character, I got weeeepy.

All of that sucked. Alone.

k-os crabbuckit

next door SOLD
at 2x the price
bonus track

durings

 

durings

Palm trees in pristine locations depressed me. But with a little grit they were sexy against the setting sun. “Fuck me,” I said to the palm trees. ~The Picses a Novel, Melissa Broader

sex on it

shine - mondo somebody

weekend VIRGO love horoscope: You will think about it.

bonus track "It's hard to be mean when you're naked." Not entirely true unfortunately, but still a good motto.

Lash Out - Alice

And when I think about how each of my few lovers has made me feel and left me feeling, I have to conclude that mostly sex is a bad investment. But. In each case, those relationships did move me foward in very instrumental ways. And I also want to have sex in Greece. I am at cross purposes with myself in my own mind on this topic.

"ouchies"

Handyman - Awolnation

if this had a translation maybe more men would have more of it #generouslovers

during

 

"I looked into his good face. Not good because it was handsome, but because it was itself, like fine metal, tempered and beaten for strength.... I had no right to claim him, I knew it. But in a solitary life, there are rare moments when another soul dips near yours, as stars once a year brush the earth. Such a constellation was he to me...~Circe, Madeline Miller

Til The Love Runs Out

"breathe"

VIRGO Feelings may be generally mutual, but they are not specifically the same. It will take time to understand how another person thinks of you, though you'll never understand it fully.

It would help if people knew what they felt and said as much. But they do not, either one, generally speaking, about anything.

Bonus: breathing thru your genitals

 Cooler than through your ears by far. When crabby, you could think at your junk, "BREATHE!" (Turtles are my totem animals.)

I am as tired as I look

Hotel beds feel like plywood wrapped in scratchy sheets. Between house(s) buying/selling/repairing and college traveling, I am so exhausted that I am not even sure for where/what/whom I feel homesick. All I want to is rest. A thought pops into my heart: I want to curl in the palm of King Kong and sleep cradled there. I can't remember why that seems familiar, like a I had wish in a dream before.

PHRASING-_-

The 1975 - Somebody Else

My boss kicked it to downstate but I knew that was coming (unlike the rest of the crazy my job is atm). I told him I am spending my sabbatical on his couch, then I drank beer for hours with his wife plotting how to spend his big raise - not on fake tits, she says, cz she already got those last year (we all look down at this news at them then at our own 😕).  I really need just a toilet that flushes and isn't literally 90 years old and a kitchen light fixture. Basic basic shit. Like, can I get a few days of sanity and a handy man? How is that too much to ask of this world???