which way to Mexico?

image removed (stop looking at my ass!)

deep thought of the day, thanks DmS for inspiring it:
if you stick it out a little, it looks a little better, and the trampstamp does help the overall presentation a bit, but ultimately those saddle bags are an Italian woman's burden. I could exercise til my tits melted off, and still
my butt be girly

coincidentally, weekly horoscope for Capricorn, my rising sign: Supermodel Selita Ebanks is your role model. In accordance with the astrological omens, I recommend that you arrange for the kind of special treatment she enjoys as she's preparing for a runway show. That means getting five stylists to work for hours every day perfecting every aspect of your physical appearance. Please make sure they apply no less than 20 layers of makeup to your butt. APRIL FOOL! I lied. The omens say this is not a good time to obsess on your outer beauty. They do suggest, however, that attending to your inner beauty would be smart. So please do the equivalent of getting 20 layers of makeup applied to your soul's butt.

umm, I'm not applying 20 layers of make-up to my anything inside or out, so if you don't like any of it then don't look at it, playlist:
Justin Townes Earle: Your Biscuits Are Big Enough For Me
Missy Elliott – Lose Control (Popcorn’s Last Minute NYE Butt Touchin’ Edit)
The Bird And The Bee - I Can't Go For That
Pomegranates – Thigh High
bonus track:
"Duke of Anxiety," Scout Niblett, I like singing this loud in my cahr

"Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it is all over." - Gloria Naylor


aretha franklin - share your love with me

WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: An exciting time starts with someone who catches your eye and causes your heart to skip a beat. TAURUS: Though others already think you are perfect, you'll take steps to feel more attractive. GEMINI: Your awareness expands as a friend becomes your best confidant, helping you see your own blind spots. CANCER: The situations that crop up allow you to master your people skills. LEO: You are willing to put your own agenda and stories on hold while you focus on making the other person feel important. VIRGO: You are disarming. You get someone to lower his or her guard and reveal the true personality under all the hype. LIBRA: Your self-esteem is on the rise, and you attract an equally confident match. SCORPIO: Don't ask for or listen to the opinions of others. You know the most about your love life, and therefore you are the one who will make the best decisions regarding it. SAGITTARIUS: Timing is everything. You create a memory by striking an emotional chord at just the right time. CAPRICORN: There is an elegance about you that draws people in. AQUARIUS: There's someone who makes you feel happy, positive and more alive. Let this person know. PISCES: You can be exciting at times, but what's really important and most attractive is that you are an all-around decent person.

"Quiet Dog," Mos Def

VIRGO, The only thing holding you back is your own fear. If you dwell on it, you'll make it come true. So be open-minded as to the many possibilities that could happen. One outcome would be wonderful for you. Focus on that one.

Joe Cocker “Unchain My Heart” (Ray Charles)

Anything scares me, anything scares anyone but really after all considering how dangerous everything is nothing is really very frightening. - Gertrude Stein

Sooo Officer caught some guy lurking in my backyard while I was off teaching yesterday . . . he was wearing a black leather jacket and smoking a cigarette, says Officer, and when questioned said he was looking for the backdoor to knock on bc he was selling magazines for his church, then he ran off >:/ Probably merely sensing my nervousness, Jasper has been up and down alllll night, sniffing the empty rooms and waking me up and driving me crazy. I'm not frightened finally, I'm REALLY PISSED OFF.

I'm so out of patience w/ shit to worry about, that let's just say: if you were a daffodil, to save myself the heartfuss I'd kill you before you could threaten to wilt (me).

WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: You like who you are with someone. You are different with this one than you are with anyone else in the world. TAURUS: Your relationship will blossom with equality, respect and mutual spoiling. GEMINI: Forget about the foolishness you feel when you put yourself out there emotionally. You're brave, and that will pay off for you. CANCER: Your psychic powers are strong, and you can clearly see where a relationship is going to end up. LEO: You speak from the heart, and it goes straight to the heart of your listeners. VIRGO: You'll like someone much more than you did at the start. LIBRA: You get your way. It does take some effort, but ultimately the other person can't resist your charms. SCORPIO: Your need for social interaction may be less than usual. Your alone time is necessary and sacred, though. SAGITTARIUS: Say less and do more. Your actions will tell the story of who you are. CAPRICORN: You treat others well simply because it's the right thing to do. You want nothing in return. AQUARIUS: Deliver your message with levity and warmth. PISCES: Unfavorable impressions can be reversed. Your charm can pull back the one you've offended.

Lisa Hannigan: Courting Blues

update, music:
stephen marley - hey baby (ft mos def) - loooove this, high rec



It's after 7 pm, the sun is going down, I'm making dinner (meatloaf, and peanutbutter cookies for dessert) - the boys are still out back in the muddy yard, sword fighting with found sticks, the dogs chasing them around.

I love spring.

Scarecrow went in for surgery yesterday to fix the tendon he snapped off at the elbow last week trying to muscle his way through anxiety via yoga . . . concurrently, the lung spot loooooooms, a potentially deadly tickle, a cough a cough a cough. He should have been home and fine on the same day yesterday. Unless anesthesia and not being able to breathe didn't go well together? Of course, I'm not in the loop to hear anything. I'm starting to see why people like twitter. It would be funny that his wife hates me because he looked at my ass one day, that stacked up against life/death shown for how absurd such things are finally - it would funny if I were laughing. But we're alone, he and I, in a necessary friendship loop of 2, easily put asunder by anything befalling either one of us, no witnesses except an obscure unread blog. Maybe that's why we have kept this friendship, for its Nothingness, because it is stripped of anything that it is not. There is nothing holding it in place or together. Just like there's nothing holding any of us together and on this earth except a film of skin and wishful thinking.

...it is my feeling that the only thing you have to fear is fear, in that sense that to the extent that you have enough faith or trust to let it happen, you always go through the next one and the next one and the next one. In the Tibetan literature, they say, "Embrace your ten thousand horrible demons and your ten thousand beautiful demons." You've just got to take it all and keep going. "Yeah, that one too," and "That one too," and keep going. All your fears have to be embraced, entertained, honored, and you go on with them.

--Ram Dass, lecture
in The Only Dance There Is

update: he's fine, roaring in pain alive as anything

ray stevens - gitarzan

on the back porch by the basil la la laaaa is my favorite paaaarrrt

WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: Accept the other person's right not to do things your way, and you may very well get your way in the end. TAURUS: Be charming and appreciative of what others do for you and you'll win hearts. GEMINI: It doesn't cost a thing to give your love and acceptance generously. CANCER: You are terrific just the way you are. Do not cultivate a relationship with anyone who wants to change you. LEO: There's someone you look at with great love in your eyes. Everyone notices. VIRGO: A new person is fascinated by your recent activities, reminding those who already know you how interesting you are. LIBRA: You are a warm and sincere person and will compliment others just because it makes you feel good to do so. SCORPIO: You'll make a difference in someone's life. SAGITTARIUS: Maximize what you have and your shortcomings will be a non-issue. CAPRICORN: You have depth. A loved one can't get enough of you, and there is always more to give. AQUARIUS: Avoid a person who is overly suspicious of your actions. You don't need a Jealous Nellie around. PISCES: Give your love only to those who realize what a valuable treasure it is.

Jerry Garcia and David Grisman “The Thrill Is Gone” (B.B. King)

"soul, a moving river. body, the riverbed" - rumi

Johnny & The King Casuals - Purple Haze

Monday

"Homework"

Homework is a fat stupid lie.
It sometimes makes me cry.
It is a boring concept.
It sometimes feels like a boring debt.

But video games I argue.
They are fun for you to do.
It feels like May.
On a cold life less day.

(lol)

WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: No complaining. Your classy attitude will set you apart from others and raise the bar for all around you. TAURUS: Questions about exes could come up and are best avoided. Say as little as possible on the subject. GEMINI: You'll be in a deep mood. You'll be anxious to cut the chatter and get into serious discussion. CANCER: Your smile is irrepressible; your laugh, infectious! No wonder everyone wants to be around you. LEO: Don't accept late invitations. They show a lack of thought and perhaps respect. VIRGO: You'll enhance your appeal by playing up the thing that makes you unique. LIBRA: Your parents will have an influence on the way your love life goes this weekend. This is true whether or not they are actually around. SCORPIO: The intensity of a relationship will not scare you away. You'll be attracted to passion. SAGITTARIUS: Someone says something sweet and unforgettable to you. CAPRICORN: You encourage your friends and loved ones. They feel validated by you. AQUARIUS: Dress to impress your familiars. This will put a zing in your relationships. PISCES: Take extra time to care for yourself. It's not excessive if it's what you need.



poe - Hey Pretty (Drive-By 2001 Mix)

what a lung spot looks like x-ray'd by the imagination of a bystander based on the cryptic monosyllabic description of the patient who listened to the doctor while no doubt steeped in a pissed-off panic

Naama Hillman: Ring of Fire



As for opening night of happiness seminar, I was very unhappy. (You didn't need intuition to see that coming, right? duh.)

I have to go to a fucking happiness seminar that starts tonight. I know why I thought it was a good idea, but the entire world has shifted (or have I?). Meanwhile, I spent the morning balling intention into molten wads and hurling them ricochet style-against a mirror.

• Bonnie Raitt: Burning Down the House