Sunday, December 31, 2023

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22). You know better than to search for the point in such matters as beauty, love and connection. In life's euphoria, the concept of usefulness is not at all useful. Surrender to the wonders of purposelessness.

lake st dive - hypotheticals

 

Saturday, December 23, 2023

Friday, December 22, 2023

first beach vaca since Iberostar

I'm warming up to the idea of this life

I won another N E H grant. All for knowing how nursing students think in the privacy of their writing to their English professor in her dumb boots. The way Nebraska looks at me, "like a winning lotto ticket lying on the ground" is how Trainwreck put it once, before the beginning. I think about beginnings a lot. Trying to avoid them. But one cannot avoid them and live fully. Even knowing that plotlines always end somehow.

flow w it - st paul & the broken bones

everglades












 
the asshat is fucking barefoot ๐Ÿคฃ

Tuesday, December 19, 2023

 




Sunday, December 17, 2023

Lancaster. Never really went there before looking at a house on Como Lake yesterday, mostly for the irony of ending back on a body of water named Como, like how butterflies spend whole short lifetimes to get back to where it all began for them sorta. I'm picking around in obscure blogging about the place. Something feels familiar but I can't place it ๐Ÿค”







random fishing dude


hey joe - charlotte gainsbourg

Saturday, December 09, 2023

Mom: "Speed hump! Hee hee. It's supposed to be speed BUMP, no? Hee Hee hee. Only in Buffalo! Teeheehee!" 



The holidays. It's hard to come all the way back from Polish by injection re holiday light urges. I tell myself that it looks like a cover story for a pedophile, and yet..

Leo - Adam Sadler as a lizard singing, as about "mothers in menopause" la la laaa. Don't Cry - bound to be a classic hahaha. My mother is currently watching it for the 3rd time in 24 hours, while I put up another strength of lights ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿป‍♀️

Bonus track 



Thursday, November 30, 2023

oh wonder - all we do 

today, a student panicked so badly trying to talk to me that she couldn't breathe and another watched a baby die of suffocation from sleeping in the one bed the family had between the 5 of them and he wrote "I am nothing but a fly on the wall" and I took my mother and daughters to an art show where 30 years passed through my mind's hands like silt


Wednesday, November 15, 2023

How can you do that much damage to a knee(s) "falling" from the height of standing?๐Ÿคจ

If I had a dollar for every hour I've spent lying in a tub, wondering "why oh why?"..

burnstick - stay


bonus track: shihtzu v. invisible varmint

Sunday, November 12, 2023





quiet

falling outside Klienhans,
a momento

Sunday, November 05, 2023

Friday, November 03, 2023

  


❤️


Sunday, October 29, 2023

Thursday, October 26, 2023

Friday, October 20, 2023

Saturday, October 14, 2023

8 years gone




Bobby, love at first sight

love at first sight


Piggy