Sunday, December 31, 2023
Friday, December 22, 2023
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| first beach vaca since Iberostar |
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| I'm warming up to the idea of this life |
I won another N E H grant. All for knowing how nursing students think in the privacy of their writing to their English professor in her dumb boots. The way Nebraska looks at me, "like a winning lotto ticket lying on the ground" is how Trainwreck put it once, before the beginning. I think about beginnings a lot. Trying to avoid them. But one cannot avoid them and live fully. Even knowing that plotlines always end somehow.
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Sunday, December 17, 2023
Lancaster. Never really went there before looking at a house on Como Lake yesterday, mostly for the irony of ending back on a body of water named Como, like how butterflies spend whole short lifetimes to get back to where it all began for them sorta. I'm picking around in obscure blogging about the place. Something feels familiar but I can't place it 🤔
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| random fishing dude |
Saturday, December 09, 2023
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| Mom: "Speed hump! Hee hee. It's supposed to be speed BUMP, no? Hee Hee hee. Only in Buffalo! Teeheehee!" |
The holidays. It's hard to come all the way back from Polish by injection re holiday light urges. I tell myself that it looks like a cover story for a pedophile, and yet..
Leo - Adam Sadler as a lizard singing, as about "mothers in menopause" la la laaa. Don't Cry - bound to be a classic hahaha. My mother is currently watching it for the 3rd time in 24 hours, while I put up another strength of lights 🙄🤦🏻♀️
Thursday, November 30, 2023
today, a student panicked so badly trying to talk to me that she couldn't breathe and another watched a baby die of suffocation from sleeping in the one bed the family had between the 5 of them and he wrote "I am nothing but a fly on the wall" and I took my mother and daughters to an art show where 30 years passed through my mind's hands like silt
