Play me a song? 

Dire Straights - Walk of Life immediately followed by You're the One That I Want 

All Them Witches 3 5 7

ha I used to be funnier 🤔 I gotta work that muscle 🤔 it might be attached to my clitoris 🤔 which would explain a lot 🤨

gallows humor

 Polish by injection dies hard. 

🧐

death cab for cutie - here to forever 

I found him a house to have for me

I gotta get a real estate license, here and there

sweater weather

 

on Deleware Ave today - pics can't do it justice - the world is so fucking pretty, it's astounding like insanely cold clear beautiful water, makes me sad to have to die 

my phone sucks

insanely cold water ft wool socks

 overnight temps were 27 degrees ft my mother's sense of humor  

extremely cold water

 

 

running with ghost dogs

Django's song

TJ declared it only logical that Django was trans. So, Django needed a new name. I called her Seniorita, and I danced with that little dog in my arms whenever it came on the radio. 

That turned out to be a young man living in a van with a woman and a baby. He made all that beautiful sound, enough to fill a parking lot, with one violin and an amplifier the size of a car battery. They had a sign that said "homeless anything helps" and spoke no English. I gave them the $50 I had on me. On the way home, I had to pull over and cry 😭. But then I got on with it, stomping through my days, yoga and boots and lost the 19 pounds. 

If I stop moving, I feel sorrowful. It's like *it catches up* and takes me down. I have always been that way

Holding still hurts me / I was trying kill myself

I have to stomp around a lot And have dogs

Janis

 

am I his pillow or is he mine? 🤔

 

TODAY'S BIRTHDAY (Aug. 31). A quest is featured, and in addition to the prize, you'll find respect and admiration for yourself as you accomplish more than you dreamed possible. Someone will enchant you in a way that won't wear off. The relationship inspires lifestyle improvements. Spontaneous fun with friends leads to travel and projects. Libra and Scorpio adore you. Your lucky numbers are: 3, 10, 4, 19 and 30.

Play me a song? 

Keith Urban - Somebody Like You

pandemic scrapbooking

gravesite for familiars

first pic from Amsterdam 

in the arms of my pond husband

🙄

D-ball can throw shade

Nebraska left; Disco kept his dog, Janis

 sunday girl - where is my mind

the angels caught in my tangles are dogs

angels and angles - decemberists (acoustic) 

Watching light do its thing, be light. Maybe when we die, we get to do that. Maybe that's Django. 

😪 

They were to have a conversation about the United States as an asylum for writers and other artists in exile and as a home for freedom of creative expression when the attack occurred

Bald Face hornets, the murder hornets of the northeast apparently, the nest bigger than a basketball materialized in days. The witches would say I did that, brought them with my angry grief. But if I could summon such beasts, you would think I could sic them - be handier than a gun eh? 

RIP Django

my heart breaks
 

 

off to the dacks

 More like it, says my kid, laughing. But 29th pond always fills my cup. Then maybe .. ?

 

Nevermind - Dennis Lloyd

 

I think it's gonna be a long long time

come see about me

 Elton ft Dua Lipa - Cold Heart

After a month with almost no cell service, feels like I fell out of and back into Time.

If Mark were still alive, I might have walked into his house and laid down and just stayed there. He would have let me. He might not have even asked me why. He might not have said anything at all. As I swam, I had thought experiments like that. 

loves of last resort

leaving las vegas

But I did not want to be a priest. I was the same as most girls who wished themselves in a convent: I wanted to be where I could think, and where not just anyone could look at me.

I wanted to choose constraint and be freed by it, after constraint was all that had ever been offered to me.

Part of what you have to figure out in this life is, Who would I be if I hadn’t been frightened? What hurt me, and what would I be if it hadn’t? Priestdaddy

(why ask now?)

Buffalo Springfield ft Neil Young - For What It’s Worth ft Mr Soul (wow)

 

water

I unclenched my memory fists and made a pocket of air in which I put a lake property the size of that bubble. here.

here I have been thinking, trying to. I hear a woman nearby talking about Melrose Place, perhaps someone famous died again

Roe v Wade was overturned today. I don't hear anyone talking about it. so much of what I have been thinking = my choices were often between a rock and a hard place (I chose the rock and it got harder or chose the hard place that turned to cement). is it any wonder I'm unhappy with that? with my life feeling about to end any day now, and looking back there is so much HARD ROCK? I can't imagine a girl like me, a girl like I was, is well served by having even fewer choices than I did

imagine a layer of hard over water, an air bubble under the hard layer, one big enough for the whole face of a woman

50 Cent - Many Men