mini (but still huge) mile high apple pie cz I figured I'd be hungry; I squirted and I'm starving

I did not intend to suggest another round actually, the body needs time to digest. Anticipation is pleasant.

But I kissed him like we were gonna anyway. And his cock responded just from kissing him. That's a good place to leave it. (#toecurly)

I think we are re-establishing our baselines. Relearning how we like to be touched/fucked. He said casually of next time as "I know I know, you're gonna puke on my cock yadayada" Twas funny phrasing and also YES. And it's an enjoyable process. The challenge with puking on dick - what is hard to breathe about it - is it's also fighting your instinct to always turn away (!) if you're going to puke (!). But you do the opposite. You cough it up, as it were. And you look ship wrecked, also, as a consequence...  you I trust him not to think less of me. 

I wonder if he prefers eye contact now 🤔 it used to be my form of meditation so I closed my eyes *almost*, how I was taught in tantra: "soft focus on what's at the end of your nose for a longass time". 

I'm also his person to talk about what he's broken about, so I asked questions. I had to do the intake basically. I got all the intel I needed for what his days look like. I don't gotta ask no more about that right now. I will always listen, sometimes nudge him for more so I understand, but all lines of inquiry lead to ouchy. Tread lightly. 

Lightly is usually better, no matter what part of the body/human, rule of thumb. 

So. I am focused on the intimacy. The logistics will sort themselves out. And in time, so will his troubles. As will mine. I am going to focus on making him (both of us) feel good now. Lean in on sex chats / lines of inquiry. Give him one reason at least to want to leave there and look for an apartment. Want of privacy. 

someday somethings gonna give - mikhail laxton