It had just started to peep in my own mind, what has been off-limits for and in me. But it shut off like a circuit breaker. He said he wouldn't choke me (off) without warning, but he didn't say anything about cutting the power. I am learning things. 

Such as, I did not write or even think these thoughts at all, no words, until he said "unpause", Simon says pause style. I would call that a witchcommand, delivered with the raw efficacy of No. The 'art of medicine', all those chats about decisiveness as a power that one projects or not. Call it what you want, I S T O P P E D. Respect. One No-slinger to another.

think of one other word that means what you mean by 'unpause'