In a right-tided world, we would both be Okay. And in my work, case studies like his would be part of how I do it, and he would no longer be in the place of actively being a case study. He is writing me a second one now - don't think I've forgotten the case study of the kid, oh no - quite the contrary, that trauma is now part of the failure of "whole person care" case study if (when) nobody, EVEN THOUGH THEY KNOW HIS ASS, connects the dots between the stress test tomorrow and STRESS. Will he connect dots, out loud? What does "know better" mean in this case? It's not an easy answer. There are costs for exposing your whole person, which could cause new traumas, folks are very rightfully guarded.  How does a trauma brain parse all that? 

I see a pattern of his ONE, I extrapolate. How many parents of children who have had a traumatic life threatening protracted illnesss themselves grow ill with trauma-related disease such as panic attack disorder? Subset the healthcare worker parents. Story of one, closely read it. Then widen the lens and there it'll be, a pattern. I am rarely wrong, honestly, about this kinda stuff. Take a little pattern you saw (through his eyes), go get grants. 

Or, this time, change the tide of the earth 🌊 . Cz fyi, case 3 of these interlocked case studies so SOUTH easily. This, the parent, would be C-2. Good doctoring needs to happen in C-2. Not just technically good, I mean insightful. 

I do (did) have a lot of fun with getting good at this. But it's not worth a damn if it doesn't save a life right now. Two of them. 

I have faith in my mother. God shines through her. I will never know exactly what my mom said to him, and fretted about it at the time, but it doesn't matter. Whatever it was sent him upstairs with an ear to ear smile that was 100% authentic, and that kiss was happy. And seeing him like that made me feel good. 

It's right there. I just need to change the tide of the earth 🌊.