Men and houses both cost way more over time than the sticker price. The house MIGHT be worth it.

At least one of the Greeks thinks I am his future wife. Whoa man. Not much happens on the relationship front in my life. I do not seek out new men, at all. And when someone tries to flirt with me, it reminds me of the past. So, for instance, it strikes me as funny and sad what a cheater must feel when someone comes on to them hardcore 'I can't stop thinking about you' type shit. Cz who can they tell or talk to? Like, 'omg the shit he said about my eyes' or whatever. Ya know? I guess Trainwreck told his mother, chittering behind my (his best friend's) back. If you had ever loved a cheater, you would understand. Every romantic interlude makes you think something about them like that. 'I wouldn't be here if you hadn't betrayed me'. Like memory mind poison.

And tonight it struck me too: that must be how John feels about me. I remind him. So. I musta made him miserable. (I'm sorry.)