"Smart love" may be a contradiction of terms, but no one, not even love, can be foolish all of the time: Even a stopped clock is right two times a day. Mercury tugs across the sky at Pluto to bring awareness to what's really important. You may find that what your heart wants not only is intelligent in a way but is good for others, too.

VIRGO Respect where you've been and what you know; set a limit to what you're willing to accept from others. If you don't lay boundaries, you'll be insulting your own experience.


The look on his face. Complete acceptance that life is people hurting you - carelessly purposefully heartlessly inevitably - period.

Ya hear all the time how you have find inner peace, go to yoga, forgive trespasses, forgive yourself, breathe and embrace what is. God knows I have believed that. But. Acceptance is the look on that kid's face.

VIRGO You're keeping track. In everything that happens, you've the equivalent of the black box of an airplane accounting for it. Flames and floods and love and war couldn't change the account of the faithful, honest witness inside you.

weekend love horoscope: the existential question

Everything else turned out fine, life would be pretty good, if only....?....I truly can't decide if I should nurture/protect that one fuck I have left to give and hope my heart grows back to fully functional someday somehow, or if I should kill that last scrap of softness in myself and hope all the pain dies out with it. To tell ya the truth, I am not even sure it's my choice - the feeling in my chest right now might well be just a ghost where my heart used to be before it got ripped out, like the maddening itch that amputees feel in limbs that no longer exist actually.

Believe it or not, when I think 'I want to see a movie', I stop and examine that thought and wonder at it, do I really feel that (?), can I *afford to feel that* if I do (?), or should I kill it if it is real (?)...even shit that small stumps me anymore.

I might be a performance of a person. And inside there is a robot at the controls. It is no wonder, in retrospect, why I was attracted always to characters like Data and never ones like Commander Ryker (TJ is rewatching that series lately) - it was foreshadowing what I would (have to) become.

VIRGO  If you learn from every scenario, the more scenarios you live, the more you'll learn. So when the question of whether to go or stay arises, if your aim is to be wiser, the answer is usually to go.

North/up is always my instinct to go. I would go see this,  the tiny cabin that he built and she made into art and they made home, then I would park next to a lake and cross seeing northern lights off my bucket list.

"..their image accompanies us in our mind both when we’re out and about and when we’re at home, even though for a long time we believe that we will never get accustomed to their absence. From the start, though, we know that we can no longer count on them, not even for the most petty thing, for a trivial phone call or a banal question (“Did I leave my car keys there?” “What time did the kids get out of school today?”), that we can count on them for nothing. And nothing means nothing. It’s incomprehensible really, because it assumes a certainty, and being certain of anything goes against our nature: the certainty that someone will never come back, never speak again, never take another step—whether to come closer or to move further off—will never look at us or look away. I don’t know how we bear it, or how we recover. I don’t know how it is that we do gradually begin to forget, when time has passed and distanced us from them." The Infatuations, Javier Marias

Portugal. The man. - I Feel it Still

Blurred Lines - ADDIE

VIRGO weekend love horoscope: Your sights are set on one that's difficult to know and hard to win due to the stiff competition. You'll succeed.

feist - pleasure
fink - black curls

 

Gallows humor: Trump on hairspray and Ms Universe (unrelated, believe it or not).

on cue

mal de coucou
n. a phenomenon in which you have an active social life but very few intimates—people who you can trust, who you can be yourself with, who can help flush out the weird psychological toxins that tend to accumulate over time—which is a form of acute social malnutrition in which even if you devour an entire buffet of chitchat, you’ll still feel pangs of hunger.

I need an obscure word of sorrow that means "awake and ready to go to but the market and nursery and pond store are all still closed for hours".

Once I had a frog in the pond. I called him Shitty-P, short for Shitty Prince Charming. Sun caught him in Art Park and brought him to me as a kind of Prince Charming lucky charm, but my luck only got worse so I let him go / kicked him out. Today I decided I wanted another, so we went back to the park to fetch a prince from this little overgrown bogspot, a glorified ditch really, where tons of frogs always are. We thought we would name him Better Adjective Prince Charming this time for good general loveluck. But no frogs were there at all, not even jumping to get away from our feet and poking sticks, it was dead quiet as if they were all holding their little collective froggy breath. I looked and looked. Then realized what was right before my eyes.

So big that I hadn't seen it, my brain just didn't compute, and old as dirt (wow).  And I sat down and leaned over the water and he swam up to me and stared into my eyes (I swear!), and when I leaned in more he craned his face toward me more, nose to nose like.

I didn't have my phone - these pics were taken by Sun's bf at a distance trying to get pics without my noticing and without scaring the turtle (who didn't look scared of jackshit, frankly).

I know all about turtles. And what they mean.

VIRGO It may be a fight to hang on, but it shouldn't be a fight to let go. Letting go is easy. It doesn't require any special skill or strength. Letting go is simply a decision. Open your hands.

VIRGO You don't need to go anywhere for the beauty. The beauty is in how you see it. The truth you seek is the same. You'll find the truth and you'll find it right where you are.

"The U.S. Census Bureau reported in September 2014 that: U.S. real (inflation adjusted) median household income was $51,939 in 2013 versus $51,758 in 2012, statistically unchanged. In 2013, real median household income was 8.0 percent lower than in 2007, the year before the latest recession." Note, that is HOUSEHOLD income, meaning an entire American family makes (before taxes) in an entire year almost exactly what that (ugly!) coat costs. (Aside: by comparison, Brigite Macron's little black daydress was perfect.)

Democrats, how on earth are you losing? Have you asked yourself that? Like maybe you should read your horoscope or some shit, look for a clue.

If democrats slapped their collective dick on the table, it'd make the sound of biscuit dough. The president colluded with our Big Bad Always Enemy to win control of our government, and the democrats go at that in the news every morning as if they are trying to defend their comparative literature dissertation to their uninterested extended midwestern family.

Dear democrats,

Nobody in middle America gives the slightest shit about your ph.d.

Sincerely, Duh.

I mean, seriously, how hard can it possibly be to get your hands the guy's tax returns, etcetcetc? STOP TALKING AND FUCK HIM already, jeezus christmas oye vei :/

Oh Angela, I know just how you feel.

nap - niall horan

WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: Someone is getting hooked on you, and someone else is becoming quite jealous. TAURUS: Enjoy the rewards that come from being vocal about what you want and need. GEMINI: You know what you're good at, and you'll prove it. CANCER: Share your story, even if you don't think it's very interesting. The originator often doesn't get how fascinating their own journey can be to others. LEO: A prize goes to you, namely because you're the only one who sees it as a prize. VIRGO: Your imagination has magnetic properties, but that's only one of your many attractive qualities. People feel comfortable and safe around you. LIBRA: It will feel as though you're channeling ideas, love and more from on high. SCORPIO: Family and love may clash, but you'll do a lot more for family than you would do for any other category of person (even when family doesn't deserve it). SAGITTARIUS: Don't let fun lead to overindulgence. CAPRICORN: Always enter with plenty to offer and exit on a sweet note. AQUARIUS: Sometimes conflicts arise to show us that everyone is wrong. PISCES: When you're struck with romantic inspiration, it feels like a magical, mystical experience.

 I read my horoscope like for clues from God whatever (wtf?)

VIRGO. Level-headed to a boring fault, but we are the best sign in bed, we love sex like food, we would never get botulism from gas station nachos because that isn't food so we'd rather starve than eat it in the first place.

CAPRICORN is my rising sign, how I seem to others. Like Virgos only colder-seeming, immovable, judgemental. Loyal like dogs. Highly desired in the friend zone.

PISCES is my moon sign, rules gut reaction. Overly sensitive. Nervousness make me nervous, flattery makes me wince, arousal is consignable, laughing contagious.

And Venus is in LEO for me. Possessive and protective. Self-sufficient. Queenly. Likely to be attracted to mates who lie in shade watching me, feigning disinterest or actually inert.

1+2+3/4

glee - summer nights

rising sign CAPRICORN Regarding relationships: It's true that things aren't the same as they used to be. There's beauty and joy in this. Leo Tolstoy said, "Each time of life has its own kind of love."

VIRGO  Don't worry; it's not really up to you to define yourself. People will come up with their own thoughts and feelings about the experience of you. You're more loved than you could possibly know.

(...okaaay[?])

VIRGO Friends will treat you like family, and family will treat you with the admiration they usually reserve for the most abstract idea of their personal heroes. Enjoy the extra attention.




red hot chili peppers - go robot (catchy) ft kissing strangers - DNCE

Discount Sarah Connor

TJ: what is for dinner tonight?
Me: BBQ ribs and the year's first corn
TJ: wow awesome! What's the chocolate smell?
Me: homemade brownies w teddy gram crumble top, and I am making a fresh batch of your pepper spread too
TJ: Jesus, sweet!, can I blow you?
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
TJ: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Ears: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Me: omg, gigglegigglegiggle
TJ: ok that was super inappropes
Me: hahahahaha ya think?
TJ: yea you can't tell your friends that one
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Ears: don't fucking blog it or whatever
Me: nooooooo (HAHAHAHA)

Might not look like much but moving 3 yards of waterlogged topsoil was a mammoth undertaking + clean the shed + remove the decking + empty and remove yard box +++ The garbage pile is enormous, and the yards now pretty as a picture, the grass seed mixes all mulched and getting watered by warm spring rain. Then, Guardians of the Galaxy. I loove superhero flix, Good versus Evil + jokes. On the way home, the boys started down the list of weekends like this and all such that they're good sports about over the years.

TJ: Remember the time you killed the printer?
Ears: She didn't kill it, she FUCKED IT UP.
Me: (giggle)
TJ: Yea man you were like Discount Sarah Connor beating the shit out of evil tech from the future come to ruin your world.
Me: (gigglegiggle)
Ears: All because the printer cartridge wouldn't go in..
Me: They make those things to fail on purpose! Fucking planned obsolescence!
TJ: You were out in the yard, killing it over and over, 'Don't you think you're hiding under that hosta you son of a bitch!!'
Me: (gigglegigglegiggle)
Ears: I opened the door in the morning to go to the bus and it looked like the killing fields out there, printer body parts strewn all over hell hahahaha
Me: (gigglegiggle)stop(gigglegigglegiggle) ok fine, about once a year I just totally lose my shit, but those are not bad stats if you think about it..
TJ: Uh huh ... remember that one time we were giving you grief about chores and you put your head down on your desk face down and started wailing and wouldn't stop? hahahaha
Ears: hahahahaha I remember that one, I was like FUCK WE BROKE HER hahahahaha
Me: (gigglegigglegigglegiggle)stoooop(giggle)

There is nothing funnier than being made fun of by people who know you really, your weirdnesses and foibles and assholicisms and quirky proclivities.

VIRGO You're naturally self-controlled, polite without effort and inclined to listen to the opinions and stories of others with a level of attention that makes them feel seen and accepted.

All true! That and $5 will get me a Starbucks coffee, big woop!!

VIRGO You mean what you say, but you mean a lot more that you don't say. Some of the messages that you hide in your heart will have their day. And the ones that belong hidden and stay hidden will be felt on the skin like a breeze.

wishful thinking

Alex Cuba, "Yo Sé Quién Soy" 
give it half a minute




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