RIP dr john

"guilded splinter"

VIRGO. In this readymade world, the custom item, designed to fit a specific need and handmade to extremely particular standards is scarce indeed. Scarcity creates value. Your love is a custom fit and very valuable.

What's it worth? Show me.

glorious sons - gordie

I lived.

The med isn't strong enough, strain of e coli is resistant. Now I'm too scared to be furious.

These drugs are making me utterly insane. Like I seriously am just having feelings like rage *seize me* and I am clenching my jaw trying to keep it together because I KNOW this is a drug not me not me this is not.

And my hair turned to straw in 5 days.

And massive fucking headache.

I am playing the goat tapes in my head,  you really whizzed that thing

I hired help. I have to get out of this bed to open the door. It feels like a lot of work to do that. My head pounding.

I lasted an hour at work today. Back in bed. Ya ever get sick and feel so grateful for your bed that you think about homeless people and then lie there and cry? 

louis XIV- finding out true love is blind

The Faint- Erection

You don't have to love me, just let me try to make you happy.

Bill Callahan- America

First two lines

Bonus track
weirdest coolest shit I've heard in a long time

dead weather - I feel love every once in a while
YOUR MOON SIGN  ..this moon lends extraordinarily sensitive and empathetic powers. It is not difficult for Pisces moon people to give themselves over to a situation, mood or other influence. They can quite literally feel another person's pain or joy. They don't so much read minds, as their process is not an intellectual one. Pisces moon people simply have an ability to enter into the spirit of others.

My card today is The Lovers. I just unpacked my deck the other day, my face through Johnie's eyes and haunted by the rejecting gemini, is the Lovers card that I made. John was the only lover who never said he loved me. And the only one who never fucked me over, either. That is how words work, they mean what they come to mean through use. To me, 'I love you' is ominous. And I've kept it all, too. Such as those notes and talismans that I took so to heart, all bound with that cockringed pepper that I dried and packed away in course salt. I am never not aware of that cock in box, some part of me fondling Trainwreck's balls still, a spell I keep casting: you will not forget me. I said to TJ, Let's stop holding Trainwreck against every other man. He replied, I only hold him against YOU. I wonder if that would get better if I unpacked that box. Maybe I will. Maybe I will show it to Nebraska, a visual aid: Fair Warning. I scry the same desire structures in his mind, plain as day. Perhaps a warning up front would either chase him off or illicit better behavior towards me, either would be a preferable outcome. Then I will break open the pepper and plant the seeds.

Yes, that is what I am going to do.

pentonix- someone I used to know

Say Something - Great Big World 

tequila ft most epic hangover

Off to Mexico for mother's day. GIRLS ONLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Play me a song? Bill who? Wow, that is some fuckinpuckhead music.

(I shoulda kept that damn shirt)

VIRGO  Get into the kind of relationships you can handle. You know what you have time for and what you don't. You know what feels easy and what seems right but somehow isn't quite. Trust yourself.

Easier said than done. Porridge too hot. Porridge too cold. Wantdog's rapper name is Goldilocks.

scrying

ani - deferred gratification

Play me a song?
(snort)

bonus track, uh huh lalala
(I shoulda KEPT IT) 

Let's review how it was to be with the other man. None of that would have happened, for better and worse. Was it worth it? Would we do it all again?

Nebraska. He is courting me. I am honest with him but not an open book. I did mention that I love a man I couldn't be with. It just never works, I said. Nebraska accidentally got a divorce. He loved his wife but she didn't love him back enough, so he tried 'the polyamorous thing'. That NEVER works. So he understands 'it just never works' as a category. What else could I say? That my sons were 6 and 4 when we started, and now they are 21 and 19, and still after all that time, the man will not sleep over when they're here? Nebraska would come here on a plane and climb into my bed right now if I let him. Thank god he lives in Omaha, if he were in Cambridge he would have gotten a nexus pass the day he met me. So like Trainwreck, intent on me is his courtship style. Does not compute diffidence.

The ass tattoo was easier to explain than what we are. A friendship, just that, which is also a perennial loverplant. Even when it is gone it's still there, in the ground, waiting for warmth.

Always too hot or too cold. Why can't men just maintain a livable constant temp?

"I want ft. one shirt neither more nor less"

VIRGO Remind yourself of the qualities you prefer to see in the people you spend time with. New people are coming into your world and your choice of company can change who you are. 

The Dip - I Sure Don't Miss You

Weekend love VIRGO: All it takes is one move to bump friendship to the level of romance.  shakey graves - kiss the girl

Play me a song?

Moz-Suedehead