heart stop - the revivalists the way the (heart)beat kinda arrests just before 3 min then catches there for a scary moment, then two. 

it's been hard to breathe sometimes.

worry stone fetish

if you were curious, what do you ask of someone who self-snuffed against their own will / didn't want to?   I don't wanna ask anything tbh. Even "whats up?" seems absurd, hence the Fat Alberty way it sounded in my head. What I needed to know was/is "Are you breathing?" That's it.

"What has this been like for you?" was where we started, there was a mutuality in that, like the feeling when you clasp by the forearm vs just shaking hands. 

But now, there's another whole Thing Time more, whatever this has been / still is. 

Bottom line, if I opened the door and he was standing there, what would I do? Ask him where he's been? No. My first and last instinct would be about if he's okay (defined atm as breathing). So for now and the foreseeable (sp?), that's it.

I keep thinking this for some dumb reason 🤭🤷🏻‍♀️