In my first grant, I set up a faculty workshop there, my students were supposed to have access going forward ... they stripped all that out when they stole my 2nd grant.  Ways I built OUT and ways IN to healthcare, the whole history of the it HERE in this city (where I don't know why I live anymore). I should have made friends with Dennis for MYSELF, but I didn't. In every case, I arranged for faculty to make friends, so their students could have nice things. I built bridges, but my only personal attachment was a cable of intention that could be and was CUT.

I do not own the means of production. I knew that, but like my mortality, I had to ignore it.

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22). Emotional and physical bruises work in the same way — tender until healed. It's common not to know an injury exists until something brushes against it. Today helps you realize what parts of you shouldn't be pressed right now.

The department I dreamed up and built scored highest on every single student satisfaction measure. EVERY MEASURE. That was news in my inbox today too. They took it from me because it was worth something. 

Nebraska will arrive at some point overnight (he comes, he goes - has become the way of it 🤷🏻‍♀️). I don't know how long he is staying. More importantly, I don't know what he is. Perhaps, to me, he is the witness for all that went down, for all that came down on me, including himself. From across the divide where he lives in privilege and safety, he sees me living in a low rent simulacra. Two lives, not one that we share. That isn't sustainable. Seeing that way. Or living that way. 

My personal playlists are all 'how I want to feel' songs atm, for manifesting that. A lot of men crooning, what feels like like being touched by warm calloused hands. But this is Globug's current fave song, from the soundtrack for hitting the ceiling scheiBe - lady gaga

3x

a Globug creation, chocolate cheesecake with chocolate whipped cream and chocolate chips and a cowboy (cz a cowboy makes anything better)

December 20, 2024

You’ll get through this. Healing takes time. While the nurturing moon glides through your cathartic twelfth house, you could be recovering from a wound or loss. Today, la luna moves into a harmonious trine to the vibrant Sun in your fourth house of kith and kin, hinting that your nearest and dearest are here to support you. Pour your heart out to someone you trust. There’s no shame in this game, Virgo. You help people all the time. Now it’s your turn to lean on others.

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