I just can't not:

Him: -_0 good morning

Me: I've been learning to accept that all the things I built are gone 😭

Him: I know *_0

Me: if you suddenly lost 25% of your body mass and were getting endorphin highs off 6 hour tattoos, I would assume ...I mean, I've gone through A Thing

Him: I know

Me: I can accept the work isn't gone it's just with other people now 😭 But I have to let go of the people too 😭

Him: I know

Me: I would like to keep working in this field 😭 ... 

Him: I know

Me: I'm good at it, a light🕯comes on in me when I'm up there (internal monolgue: it's amazing I only fell in love with one (former!) student, well 2 if you count the Greek but he wasn't in healthcare and wasn't a *student* by any stretch..)

Him: I know, everyone knows that, it's why they want you

Me 😭 🙄 so that might be a real thing, I don't know, 🙄 but I don't want it for "us", I'm sorry, but I want it because that's what I love to do 

Him: I know

Me: And if that is not an option, living in the peanut gallery of that work while you do it, I'm sorry, but no. I can't take another year of living like this.😭 I have to tap out.

Him: I know  

Me: I mean, you backed me into that corner

Him: I know

Me: ok

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Him: jesusfuckingchrist 

Me: 🚬 I really needed that (witchbody)

Him: 

Me: 😭 did you know tears have a ton of cortisol in them, I'm toxin shedding - I should be collecting them, witches tears are in lists of ingredients for curses/activism spells 

Him:

Me: promise me something 😭

Him: um, ok

Me: we don't stop fucking until I have this shit figured out more - I mean, I say when 

Him: I want to marry you

Me: 😭😭 (ring is off)

Him: but ok, until you say when 

Me: ok

Because I just can't not. My body is built for LIVING💥

got my hand in your head - beastie boys / money mark 

The Libra moon declares that invisible forces like wind and love are on our side. The absence of these forces will be equally lucky, though. So, while this is a day to set up your sail to see where the wind will blow you, if the wind has other plans, it's a sign that you're in charge this time. As the proverb goes, "When there is no wind, row."