Android sent an update that killed my ability to communicate yesterday for 4 hours, and I saw very clearly my breaking point.

I have a friend I love dearly, he is an angel among people truly, pushing 70, didn't respond (he did but I couldn't get it), he's in Boston with his wife, usually sending me pics of his grandkids

every few days to "check in". Then, he seemed "gone". And I buckled.

My dreams are raw worries that I repress all day in order to work. I wake up tangled in fragments of fear.

It doesn't matter anymore, any prior gnarly reason why you stopped, now every "I am ok / you ok?" is humane.

Set your humane benchmark now and then hold yourself to it as this gets worse. Which it will.

https://youtu.be/1Sw2JJ5nSbM