early morning at my cottage

 george birge - mind on you

big spoon

"I don't want my life to be distractions from death and then death." Praying with Jane Eyre, Vanessa Zolton

 

autumn equinox retreat
@ silo city

thinkin bout me - morgan wallen

wisdom teeth day #nightmare

#furnurses

 My nerves are shot.

first aid kit - silver lining

We get it, Virgo. Sometimes, it lasts in love. Sometimes, it leaves scars in the most unimaginable places. The important thing to remember at this point is that things are happening for, and not to you. Your higher self is holding space for you to cleanse and purge so you can create space for the new. It’s to elevate, wild one! It’s time to visualise the best possible scenario and trust the Universe to meet you there. 

Uh huh. Welp, I'm installing a whole house back-up battery w the dregs of cash I have left cz "the universe" is full of catastrophe and although I do not believe that individuals can keep only themselves safe (you can't breathe only your own air, cough cough chernobyl), to the small extent possible, that's what I aim to do. Which is stupid. I mean, I still have no idea how to load the gun 🙄. And have only ancient bullets left behind by The Catastrophe 🙄. And what will a few days of power amount to in the face of the end of the world? Whoever had a generac in Maui wasted their money 🙄. Not that that mattered either 🙄. And yet.

I have scars in unimaginable places, which I soothe by hoarding dog food.

my study 

I am not hating an empty nest. 

in my feelings - lana del ray

she's a honey

my new broom, Earline

I remember this place 😒

Nebraska offered to make half the monthly payment, figuring that will land him a wedding. Noooooope! I ain't falling for that shit again lol, maybe when all the payments have been actually made 🤔🤨. But I was just about to break up with him out of general misery re my whole laborious life that I increasingly do not want to hold together as-is. And now I'm not going to do that because maybe this jeep is a sign that things will start to turn around now, miserable lifewise. I'll jump in that baby and drive out to wild places with my dogs, feeling sexy af, see if that improves my mooood ...

jain - makeba

 your heart or mine - john pardi

For a few glorious minutes, there was WOP in the sky right above my house. 

 

I hear it in the deep heart's core

 

"The Lake Isle of Innisfree"

By William Butler Yeats

I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,

And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made;

Nine bean-rows will I have there, a hive for the honey-bee,

And live alone in the bee-loud glade.

And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,

Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;

There midnight’s all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow,

And evening full of the linnet’s wings.

I will arise and go now, for always night and day

I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;

While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements grey,

I hear it in the deep heart’s core.

monie love - monie in the middle

found art

TODAY'S BIRTHDAY (Aug. 31). A habit of envisioning your oasis several times a day every day will turn into a superpower. You'll clear the obstacles one by one to get there. More highlights: You overcome a fear. Someone spoils like you've seen in movies. Actions taken out of inspiration, love or service also turn out to be lucrative. Libra and Gemini adore you. Your lucky numbers are: 8, 10, 5, 14 and 2.

"Someone spoils", what's that mean? 🤔

Ho

I got the keys today. Ears and I stared at the ceiling for a loooong time, listening to quiet.

next thing you know - jordan davis

Sometimes lately I imagine (fantasize) an OUT. A sidestep. And it's at those moments that I miss Trainwreck the most. 

It's always nice to see you @ Tom's diner

times trade - j lewis ❤️

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22). It’s always easier to be generous when the recipient of your generosity happens to be appreciative. But if you want go for sainthood, give to those who don’t appreciate it. Likely they are related to you.

Noooo shhhiiiiit 🤨 I'm a few of weeks shy of an empty nest. I don't think I'll hate it. 

Me and dogs, hanging out w Sarah Connor 🔫 🙏

I should really learn how to shoot that thing 🤔 

sing sing sing - bebo best💃

highwomen - the chain

#fartsoup

 

 

There is always so much going on. I suffer it or manage it or eat it or disgorge it or buy it or sell it ... whatever is the it to do, I do it, too busy to record it, and that's how it goes. Life. All the while, I live also a non-topical version that's only in my head. Such as today for whatever reason I feel not-pregnant, which I have not been for a long time, but today I *feel it*, the kicking of nothing-kicking. I am solid through and through with no carve out. 

"worshipping Disco"

rema - calm down

all time low - calm down

Hmmmm-hmmmm

Morgan Somebody - You Proof 

bros osborne - it aint my fault

chris stapleton - might as well get stoned 

Jasper died 3 years ago today. 

It struck me/us suddenly (he said it, off hand like he hadn't realized, THEN I noticed) that between the dog tracking collars and the security cameras

, all of which is his $, he can watch/see almost everything I do. 😳 🤔 hmm..do I care?...noooope 🤷🏻‍♀️

I wanna be a 🐕 

He left his holy hoodie. Dudes are weird / 💗crazy about this kinda crap, their jerseys n shit, but it does look good 🤷🏻‍♀️

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emergency contact - pierce the veil

13th lake

pond husband ❤️