I had a great day. Nothing special happened except people were nice to me. Really nice, starting with roofing lady calling me "honey". I could do a whole post just on the lock guy, a safe nerd, and how today's failure of ring doorbells proves the worth of his analog approach to my safety. I walked into the wrong meeting (no boots needed til Wed lol), but since I was there I ran to the front and tackled my boss with a bear hug 🥰 if he he weren't married, I might marry that one. Then I heard a great new song that I'll post after it's sunk in a little more. (You ever do that? Are drawn to something instinctively but then gotta figure out why?) The shrink was last, she likes it when I am her last appt because I make her laugh and we can chit chat for extra precious unbillable minutes, hell I can have two appointments worth of time shooting the shit about how crazy Everything is. I just really like it when someone is genuinely nice to me. Like if the shrink is cracking up on her own time, she ain't getting anything outa that but nice back, ya know? 

I am in recovery from the meangirl factor of this whole tribe, what I thought was mine but. Wow. No. Now I know there is a smell called "physician". Even if not in white coat, even if currently serving in an academic capacity whatever, the smell lingers. It's sort of a phermone they give off with notes of 'I don't give a shit' and 'I can have/do whatever I want' and money. It's offputting to me, though many are drawn to it. The whole tribe has traces of physician education stink, but they're not all like that, especially the physicians themselves, the ones who are genuinely kind, they give off a counter-chemical. It's always war, though, at best an uphill battle for decency all the time, a losing bruising battle. But I still like the work / my original job. I won't submit anything this year or moderate, nothing that would put me on the program. If I go at all, it'd talking to no one, listening keenly. No name tag. But. I mean. Where who why will I even be next April? I can't really think of that far away as real. 

From inception, when I posted a song by Ariel Posen for Huck, we are almost exactly half way through a if-it-lasts-a-year's worth of whatever this is/was. Trippy thought 🤔🤷🏻‍♀️🥱

Relationships are like feelings: none is more or less correct than another. Each is a unique, unfolding dynamic. Some people are easier to be around, but that doesn't determine the value of the bond.