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After threatening to fire me again passive aggressively by shutting the program and offing a couple other people, they asked me to develop a class on a single word.

"Grit."

I said yes immediately. First of all, my chair is one of mine. So from me, he gets whatever he asks. And this is the part of my job that I always liked the best. When I was free to think about a Thing. 

I am no longer the horse. The "work harder" belief, just No. It's a trap / addiction. You convince yourself that you have to, for some future benefit or to react to some crisis or both. But you'll keep convincing yourself and finding reasons to do so until you work your life to smithereens.

That said, I would be far worse off without my job right now for a lotta reasons beyond just money. 

Grit. More. "Fine." 

I turn inward. But I think as I go, and I get paid for that part.

my mother is growing too weak to paint 😪

so now I draw on walls

working grit unit titles (6 weeks)

1. relax, nothing is under control
2. diy, get used to it
3. diy, fight it
4. cut into it, [aka Knife lessons]
5. more love ft. more constraint(s) [where the concept of "more" is reflected upon using the Thoreau quote]
6. life co-pays 

The wallpaper lady, who in 10 minutes made bestest friends with mom of course (she pantomimed a joke that included crossdressing and buttfucking and politicians to crack her up) described herself as a maximalist, assuming me to be the same based on the visuals. "Ya know like some people are minimalists? No." To her, my flea-ing looks more-ish. 🤔

In philosophy, "more" isn't a single concept but appears in various contexts: as an ineffable reality beyond logical grasp (William James), the idea that wholes exceed their parts (holism), the philosophical study of quantity and measurement (semantics), or as a shorthand for seeking deeper meaning beyond simple existence, contrasting with minimalism or reductionism. Philosophers explore what "more" means in terms of consciousness, the universe's structure, ethics (like "more is better" for meaning), or even the function of language itself. 

Here are key philosophical interpretations of "more":

• Mystical/Religious "More" (William James): A deeper, ineffable reality or "subliminal consciousness" that logical language can't fully capture, suggesting life experiences beyond scientific reductionism.
• Holism ("More Is Different"): The idea that complex systems (like living organisms or ecosystems) have emergent properties that aren't present in their individual parts, making the whole fundamentally "more" than the sum of its components (as in Philip Anderson's physics concept).
• Ethics & Meaning of Life: Questions arise if "more" is inherently better (e.g., an eternal life having "more" meaning than a finite one) or if simplicity ("less is more") leads to greater fulfillment, as seen in minimalism or simple living.
• Philosophy of Language & Logic (Alexis Wellwood): Analyzing how words like "more" function, introducing concepts of "measure functions" to understand how we quantify things (e.g., "more coffee," "more intelligent").
• Metaphysics/Cosmology: Seeking a cosmic perspective to understand humanity's place, exploring if reality itself has a deeper, transcendent "more" beyond our immediate perception. 

Essentially, "more" in philosophy points to what lies beyond the immediately observable, quantifiable, or logically definable, whether in consciousness, the universe, or the pursuit of meaning.