Thursday, January 16, 2025

'Adventuhre' ahead. Have faith. (And prepare as if you're a virgo.)

In this unusual lunar week, the moon shifts from a wolf to a cat to the maiden who can take care of them both. Virgo's capable energy makes quick work of what needs doing and leaves no detail untended. The grounded precision inspires confidence, making it a time of quiet but potent action. Execute tasks. The emotions will catch up. (Not my horoscope, just general advice for all signs today.)

Execute tasks. The emotions will catch up. 

Such as,

Sign up for new credit cards, better and more specific rewards (nerd wallet), transfer any balances, cancel the old ones, re-look through every kind of recurring payment you have and transfer those onto the new cards (get your $ separated out, points yours). Do you really watch all those cable stations? Consolidate all that shit to be as cheap as you can get away with - an adult child is great help with this in exchange for them having the passwords too, but probably any autistic bro or techy friend would do same. All self-care stays on the expenses list; your body will fall apart if you don't keep it up, think of yourself as a mint condition vintage Fiat, more valuable, so keep it mint. Get access to your retirement funds, 401 whatever it is, especially if you've been sticking $5/week in it for umpteen years and have no clue (turns out I have an annuity) (I have zero idea what that is). Once you see it, and realize your degree isn't going to help you understand $ any better than the blue collar brain you grew up with, hand it over to someone else. (3 someones in my case: first my own assigned TIAA person, then a teams call with sister and her Fidelis dude.) You might feel young, rocking your decades old jeans will sure do that!, but if you aren't feeling anymore (if you ever did) "this is the last person I will ever make love to", then you have to face some hard facts, which means you need to deal with money in that light, even if you hate it (which I do). Basically, get your shit together to "go", whatever that will wind up looking like. Take a trip, it's good practice, not one of those all inclusive things, I mean a head out to somewhere ALONE and think on your feet and have all your $ where you can see it and pay bills by phone etc., and find out where you're actually welcome while you're at it. All very illuminating. 

SELF RELIANCE isn't (alas) raising a chicken and getting a gun (which wouldn't help you much, since you're not allowed a pistol, can't find bullets for a shotgun bc all the bad guys already have all the bullets, and nobody will teach a woman to hunt, so that might be fun someday or whatever but isn't really a Thing 🤨. AND besides, did you know that microsoft bought Three Mile Island?, and that AI companies are quickly doing the same, self powered no infrastructure investment for your sorry 'just trying to get to work on time' ass, and Elon [let's give him a blog name 🤔 what word in English means your tshirt doesn't fit over your middleaged manbelly you douchebag- ? Douchebag, let's just go with that] DOUCHEBAG is in charge of NUKES worldwide by Starlink, so what the fuck do you think you're gonna do with a gun in an age wherein an AR15 is laughably analog anyways? shoot your neighbor or maybe your lying lover, whom I'm telling you not to trust NOW vs shoot later); self-reliance is being alone with only yourself to rely on today, simple as that. Because more than likely, you're already more alone than you think.

As terribly painful as it has been to have to rely on knowing REALITY on my own like the goddamn Matrix, it was good practice, a good muscle to build back up because almost everyone will lie to you. Don't even think about tv or talk radio (GET OFF, take your mind back, you're strong enough, BE strong enough), let alone your partner in your bed (almost a given that person is lying to you), and be a bit dubious of "friends" whose main interest seems to be getting you to verify their beliefs. Think about corporate retreats, inherently full of utter shit that you are to cheerfully embrace 🤢 -  then stand back and put strong boundaries between yourself and everything that is any personal life version of that - you will need to do this to withstand all the stupid advice and thoughtless comments you WILL get once it's known that 'happily ever after' isn't what you're living. My therapist's favorite was "I wouldn't worry about growing old alone, AIDS is rampant in nursing homes" - she's a professional but that broke her, "as if you'll need to wait til you're 80 to get laid, but hey AIDS isn't really that bad 🤣". Especially when you might as well just die anyway, you old cunt. "Right!🤣🤣"

All of this sucks. Really really sucks and hurts. But I'll repeat, like a mantra, what my doctors said, and my oldest friend, and my sister, in almost the exact same wording within days of each other: There are adventures ahead for you.

Choose your adventuhre (that's how Bug pronounces it) playlist: 

against the grain - juliana riolino for belting it out (upbeat)

against the grain - city and colour for having to follow your heart (downtempo)

Bonus track- I didn't say close your heart, just care selectively and then do a better job by those select few

Tomorrow they would see beyond the bend in the road. They would know what lay before them...~The Familiar