OH AND how could I forget? The mts therapy team was here today, and the woman, when she heard the "invigorated" thing re D-Nozl, you shoulda seen her face 😳

us:🤣🤣🤣🤣

"so we are going to really need to work on boundary setting skills!" 

update: got a 2nd opinion re electricical. I am stupified by the normalization of greed. at the normalization of Shitty in just about every category of "normal" life. I think what I thunk before: then don't lead a normal life. Lead whatever life (in each category, make a list, stay on task, start with whatever it worst and kill that, just upend it completely, hopelessly wreck it and don't try to fix it) feels healthiest for you. It is an odd thing to have to be at odds with life if you wanna live. I was not gonna lose my shit either way, but this taught me (again) the rules (of no). In addition to disengagement from ways of thinking imposed on me (nothing framed for me, not even npr now), no more dealing with anything but real people. I hate to say it, but I might need to see (other) people Amazon. And mos def nothing but family run businesses, trucks solid but not showy. I did a localvore winter once. I did stuff like that after. Me and the kids would go on little spiritual awareness experiments/staycations. We would try A Thing and see what we got out of it (become wiser together). Bringing this back but updated. We are going try try no AI-assisted purchasing. If it has a helpbot, go further down the list of options until you get the wife who runs the place. That could be funtionally impossible (as is localvorism, no coffee? seriously? chicory root my ass). But ... 🧐 there is a level of optout/intoelse that we either haven't hit yet or we haven't hit enough crucial categories yet 🧐. We need to find it. 

I read that whole thought process out to him. He concurs. 

update: "The Beet Queen"
I am in the "waiting room" (parking lot) of Horizon, working from my phone, juggling electricians, holding my pee for an extra hour because Ears cannot remember any appt time or do ANYTHING requiring deadlines/timethoughts. This appt was supposed to be over now, but nope, another hour, then race to the next one. Not complaining! Cz nobody is in the hospital (far as I know)! And even if they were, lament wouldn't help. Only a book might. maybe 🕯
#keepbreathing

VIRGO ..bla bla...Your assignment? Accept a home-cooked meal or a shoulder rub without offering anything in return. from the angel who ghosted me yesterday? I honestly can't remember the last time I was offered either

today: drs, electricians (estimates), social workers. that's it. 

unless some new shitty thing happens. it is Monday so odds are on a new shitty thing. I'll take the over on an underdog lotta times, but the odds on a homecooked shoulder rub is a million to one