the generator is SO LOUD there is no forgetting even for a minute this latest cuff upside the head. if I didn't have to hear it, I could notthink about it. until least Wed. so loud my teeth vibrate. 

-_- nobody is in a hospital = success (repeat the mantra) but man, I am being goaded something fierce. 

I dunno what is pissing in my cheerios more, this motherfucking built like shit house draining me when I'm down again, or D-Nozl telling Ears that talking to me again and moving back here has made him "newly invigorated". I am not losing my shit but white knuckling it barely big time by my own. it makes me sooooo maaaad to mad-cry.  I just can't make any of that funny 💔 esp D-Nozl...yea thats worse than $. I don't feel safe. my heart is beating like a sqirrel. a caged one.

later: the electrician dude I had to call cz my generator came on is gonna be 7k. and D-Nozl doing yoga once was funny, but invading my safe space is very much not okay, even for Ears, to whom I said said no for the first time, in obvious pain that I could not cover up for the first time 😭no

I was very nice, all day, just in case the whole angel in disguise proverb whatever, but it was surprisingly hard to do that, and that showed on me, the hardness of it. I think that's fine, if I can 🌪 nicely 

the stump dude dug me an extra huge hole for "Jeff" midlawn. I said thank you thank you with an extra $50, assuming that's what stumpangels prefer

update:

me: (tell him my horoscope)
him: well then the tree stump guy is an angel
me: ya I'm only seeing him and your father today so ..
him: yea, I did that math real quick, def the stump guy is ur only shot 
us: 🤣🤣

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22). You're still wrestling with an issue when an angel steps in and nudges everything in an inspired direction. Give this person plenty of credit and more people will seem to come out of nowhere to help.

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