Is this it? All I want? No. God no. I have no intention of containing my self in these "whens". But I will finish the list as promised. Actions are how your intentions become real things in the world / your life. Feelings are a big deal (!), but they in themselves do not do anything except inspire action(s), for better or worse. Only by doing can you see what you're doing. Then look at it. 

In May, what I was doing was waking up angry, fists up before eyes open, and full of so much pitifulness that I could not eat. Feeling waterboarded by it. 

Then for an impactful moment, a whole bunch of other feelings rushed through me like a hard rain and got me on my feet to chase it through the summer and fall. Did it get me where I thought it could/might, the range I was capable of thinking then? No. But I am not where I was, either. And that is the bottom line. Because where I was, twas fucked.

"VIRGO..calm yourself, soften the energy and imagine the two of you in harmony. The picture of connection will come true."

These are the darkest days of the year, countdown to soltice, the last few darkdark days before the light begins to come back. "Point yourself toward possibility", witchrule of thumb in dark time. 

"Assume the ending will be happy. If it's not happy, it's not the ending."

I got that pic yesterday from a friend who's in the Virgin Islands. I will "picture connection" there, near water, my hand held (and I don't mind it).

I am thinking about getting this. am I ready? or would I let it wither and die if I had it?