time to switch gears

I gotta go get the kids to fill my own emotional tank before what is next

I booked a car for Montana with no refund coverage, committing to it - if everything goes tits up, then it will

wrote to book Tawista if she will allow it again - same, it will or won't but I will

over the weekend, I have to get my head around walking into a major surgery as the primary aftercare for I dunno how long and no back-up

drop the dogs off last on Sunday, then set my jaw (bc hers will be not be useable at all) and do what I have to do, whatever that is, til further notice

as long as nobody dies (I use that caveat WAY too much lately) it will either be fine in the end and just ("just") a trauma to heal. or it will be the first major regret of her life. one of the things I've learned now very thoroughly (like a cavity filled for days on end) is that I would rather be closer to the pain if it's one of mine, so I will be grateful to be in that hell knowing I would be frantic anywhere else

in hell, I imagine being always fine

hot n cold - katy perry Bug's song-gift for me today