If, would I want it? As usual I shied away from the question. Answer: Sort of. But I don't really. I like my life. But then again, it feels like it doesn't like me back as much. 

I always think about what it would be like to be haved and held by whatever it is. This is nice. If I took the job probably THEN all of a sudden I would get a much sweeter offer at home. That is the game.

I don't play games very well.