My family arrives today. Sister, mother...I love them and it will be nice to see them. But it won't be nice to be seen by them. To myself I am myself, in my own skin. But reflected back at me in their eyes, I am sure I look terrible, a failure and alone and sad.

I set my blog to 365 days visible, so I could look at each year as a snapshot totality. There is a lot of repetition. Variations on a same theme.