off to the dacks

 More like it, says my kid, laughing. But 29th pond always fills my cup. Then maybe .. ?

 

Nevermind - Dennis Lloyd

 

I think it's gonna be a long long time

come see about me

 Elton ft Dua Lipa - Cold Heart

After a month with almost no cell service, feels like I fell out of and back into Time.

If Mark were still alive, I might have walked into his house and laid down and just stayed there. He would have let me. He might not have even asked me why. He might not have said anything at all. As I swam, I had thought experiments like that. 

loves of last resort

leaving las vegas

But I did not want to be a priest. I was the same as most girls who wished themselves in a convent: I wanted to be where I could think, and where not just anyone could look at me.

I wanted to choose constraint and be freed by it, after constraint was all that had ever been offered to me.

Part of what you have to figure out in this life is, Who would I be if I hadn’t been frightened? What hurt me, and what would I be if it hadn’t? Priestdaddy

(why ask now?)

Buffalo Springfield ft Neil Young - For What It’s Worth ft Mr Soul (wow)