"Smart love" may be a contradiction of terms, but no one, not even love, can be foolish all of the time: Even a stopped clock is right two times a day. Mercury tugs across the sky at Pluto to bring awareness to what's really important. You may find that what your heart wants not only is intelligent in a way but is good for others, too.

VIRGO Respect where you've been and what you know; set a limit to what you're willing to accept from others. If you don't lay boundaries, you'll be insulting your own experience.


The look on his face. Complete acceptance that life is people hurting you - carelessly purposefully heartlessly inevitably - period.

Ya hear all the time how you have find inner peace, go to yoga, forgive trespasses, forgive yourself, breathe and embrace what is. God knows I have believed that. But. Acceptance is the look on that kid's face.

VIRGO You're keeping track. In everything that happens, you've the equivalent of the black box of an airplane accounting for it. Flames and floods and love and war couldn't change the account of the faithful, honest witness inside you.

weekend love horoscope: the existential question

Everything else turned out fine, life would be pretty good, if only....?....I truly can't decide if I should nurture/protect that one fuck I have left to give and hope my heart grows back to fully functional someday somehow, or if I should kill that last scrap of softness in myself and hope all the pain dies out with it. To tell ya the truth, I am not even sure it's my choice - the feeling in my chest right now might well be just a ghost where my heart used to be before it got ripped out, like the maddening itch that amputees feel in limbs that no longer exist actually.

Believe it or not, when I think 'I want to see a movie', I stop and examine that thought and wonder at it, do I really feel that (?), can I *afford to feel that* if I do (?), or should I kill it if it is real (?)...even shit that small stumps me anymore.

I might be a performance of a person. And inside there is a robot at the controls. It is no wonder, in retrospect, why I was attracted always to characters like Data and never ones like Commander Ryker (TJ is rewatching that series lately) - it was foreshadowing what I would (have to) become.

VIRGO  If you learn from every scenario, the more scenarios you live, the more you'll learn. So when the question of whether to go or stay arises, if your aim is to be wiser, the answer is usually to go.

North/up is always my instinct to go. I would go see this,  the tiny cabin that he built and she made into art and they made home, then I would park next to a lake and cross seeing northern lights off my bucket list.

"..their image accompanies us in our mind both when we’re out and about and when we’re at home, even though for a long time we believe that we will never get accustomed to their absence. From the start, though, we know that we can no longer count on them, not even for the most petty thing, for a trivial phone call or a banal question (“Did I leave my car keys there?” “What time did the kids get out of school today?”), that we can count on them for nothing. And nothing means nothing. It’s incomprehensible really, because it assumes a certainty, and being certain of anything goes against our nature: the certainty that someone will never come back, never speak again, never take another step—whether to come closer or to move further off—will never look at us or look away. I don’t know how we bear it, or how we recover. I don’t know how it is that we do gradually begin to forget, when time has passed and distanced us from them." The Infatuations, Javier Marias

Portugal. The man. - I Feel it Still

Blurred Lines - ADDIE

VIRGO weekend love horoscope: Your sights are set on one that's difficult to know and hard to win due to the stiff competition. You'll succeed.

feist - pleasure
fink - black curls

 

Gallows humor: Trump on hairspray and Ms Universe (unrelated, believe it or not).

on cue

mal de coucou
n. a phenomenon in which you have an active social life but very few intimates—people who you can trust, who you can be yourself with, who can help flush out the weird psychological toxins that tend to accumulate over time—which is a form of acute social malnutrition in which even if you devour an entire buffet of chitchat, you’ll still feel pangs of hunger.

I need an obscure word of sorrow that means "awake and ready to go to but the market and nursery and pond store are all still closed for hours".

Once I had a frog in the pond. I called him Shitty-P, short for Shitty Prince Charming. Sun caught him in Art Park and brought him to me as a kind of Prince Charming lucky charm, but my luck only got worse so I let him go / kicked him out. Today I decided I wanted another, so we went back to the park to fetch a prince from this little overgrown bogspot, a glorified ditch really, where tons of frogs always are. We thought we would name him Better Adjective Prince Charming this time for good general loveluck. But no frogs were there at all, not even jumping to get away from our feet and poking sticks, it was dead quiet as if they were all holding their little collective froggy breath. I looked and looked. Then realized what was right before my eyes.

So big that I hadn't seen it, my brain just didn't compute, and old as dirt (wow).  And I sat down and leaned over the water and he swam up to me and stared into my eyes (I swear!), and when I leaned in more he craned his face toward me more, nose to nose like.

I didn't have my phone - these pics were taken by Sun's bf at a distance trying to get pics without my noticing and without scaring the turtle (who didn't look scared of jackshit, frankly).

I know all about turtles. And what they mean.

VIRGO It may be a fight to hang on, but it shouldn't be a fight to let go. Letting go is easy. It doesn't require any special skill or strength. Letting go is simply a decision. Open your hands.