Samhain. Thank you to all the nasty women in my blood. So many and so necessarily tough as fuck or we wouldn't be here still. Help me, if you will, guide me forward. The world is melting. I am worried not only for our own children but for everyone's. I worry all the time. ALL THE FUCKING TIME, I worry. I worry for our thoughts, our MINDS most of all, collectively shrunk to hostile grasping need of dinner and fear. Who can think let alone read books in the face of that? I worry about our desires, marginalized and made brutal as a result. Who can afford to love on anyone anymore honestly, without shame? I worry about money, so much worry about money always all the time. I was hemmed in by cultural ignorance and poverty. Those were surmountable. Now the generation of my kids and students are hemmed in by education defined by skills that have planned obsolesce built in, and debt debt debt which is poverty prostituted forever. Who can serve anything but their immediate needs, selfish essentially in the face of that desperocity? I am one of the lucky. I got up and out. No one owns me. And I can afford to educate and keep and feed my own. On this Samhain, I invoke and entreat my dead peeps: help me know what best to do with what I have, this privilege in this place and time, for myself and the greatest good. S.M.I.B.

VIRGO Your verbal acumen might make its way into costume form with a punny suit-up. It's fun to figure out how you might embody the Whip and Nae Nae or Jon Snow White.

nasty

I remember. I used to drive back and forth to WI frequently and when I did I would look at every off ramp and wonder what it would be like to just get off and start a life as if mid step, like jumping into double Dutch, as if I had always been someone else.

I keep thinking about that. But in reverse. What if I jumped into my own life as if I were someone else? Someone who knew exactly what to make of it.

wintersleep - the great detachment (spirit)

The square of Venus and Neptune is an opportunity. On the surface this can be like a dark cloud passing over your dreams, obscuring your original idea and dampening your drive. But there's a silver lining that could reignite your drive, too. It's the obstacle that makes you realize how badly you really want it, or don't, as the case may be.

 Bonus track  I love the one about hair conditioner.

"We know what the world wants from us. We know we must decide whether to stay small, quiet, and uncomplicated or allow ourselves to grow as big, loud, and complex as we were made to be. Every girl must decide whether to be true to herself or true to the world. Every girl must decide whether to settle for adoration or fight for love. There on the bed..."- Love Warrior: A Memoir, Glennon Doyle Melton

My hometown. I wonder if Mark is still lingering, watching and shaking his head. WI must be real shit show right about now.

Meanwhile speaking of places and spaces and ways that are better off in rearview, I gotta get the hang.

This time kept the toys.

VIRGO As for a certain relationship: Your options are to go on, or to stop. Sometimes you can go on and stop at the same time, which is what you're doing when you don't make a clear choice.