stiletto booties been improving my mood all day (ft cz more people smiled at me?)

for today, all I got is a wicked stomache ache holy mother a god like I'm dyin . . I never imagined I'd have this thought keenly, "I should own a hot water bottle", but so it is.

wonder if the sabres are playing .. nope <:/ . . welp in that case I could go buy a hot water bottle or sit here some more . . . (pause) . . . I am gonna sit here some more, I worked like a maniac this last week and I'm tired and my tummy hurts so I'm gonna sit here, that's that. I'm gonna start reading this new Fuentes novel that's narrated by a severed head (probably a love story, LOL) . . .

my boy Sam - got tics for that already, 1 minute after they went on sale - Ani's Babeville, April 15

(god damn, it's so cold now though, ugh)

(so cold that I gotta post another for this dude, he cheers me up, and I love the first line of this song even though the full-band version is funkier)

repost of This/That One Guy, the one who plays nothing but instruments me makes out of stuff he buys at Home Depot. he'll be at Tralf, March 17

at the Tralf, Feb 24 - I dunno about this one, but it looks promising-ish

Cake at Artpartk, May 20th (I'm pining for summer, as you can see - the one good thing about winter is that you can dream of summering being kinda awesome not just meh)

this , I want it

between 2 ferns w zach galifianakis

tip of the day: don't drink w vegans

two shows back to back tonight. it'll be new venues for both LMG and Jeffrey respectively, and they're both so damn cute about it, nervous-happy, that I have to restrain myself from pinching cheeks like I wanna nzl Ears when he's got his orchestra clothes on. boys can be so adorable, it's too bad they make you sorry you love em the rest of the time mostly.

WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST: ARIES: Your grasp of human nature is so complete that you will be able to correctly assess a loved one's next move. TAURUS: You are a loyal friend, but don't let your personal ties prevent you from doing the right thing. GEMINI: You'll express yourself beautifully through art, writing or music and win a heart. CANCER: You can charm people into doing your bidding, but first make sure it's both ethical and worthwhile for you to do so. LEO: Someone is in tune with your quirks -- even the tilt of your head when you smile. VIRGO: Avoid the role of "rescuer." The one who needs rescuing needs a therapist, not a new love. LIBRA: Be extra sensitive to the pacing of those around you. Social discourse flows better uninterrupted. SCORPIO: Someone is very attracted to you. A mere look from you could drive this person wild. SAGITTARIUS: You love the thrill of the chase and will find the perfect opponent in this game. CAPRICORN: You are selfless and will pour on the charm for the sheer joy of making others feel well tended. AQUARIUS: You'll be attracted to the one who will rely on you wholeheartedly. This person sorely needs your love. PISCES: You will be very idealistic about your love life, and this quality will serve you well.

feist (ft dani ft gonzalez) - boomarang
feist (ft doug paisley) - don't make me wait (ft cut bait)
william fitzsimmons - I kissed a girl (katy perry cover)

Pop chanteuse Katy Perry is renowned not only for her singing ability but also for her physical appearance. Her preternatural ability to sell her musical products can be attributed in part to her sparkling good looks and charisma. That's why it was amusing when her husband, the trickster Russell Brand, Twittered a raw photo of her that he took as she lifted her head off the pillow, awakening from a night of sleep. (See it at tinyurl.com/RealKaty.) Without her make-up, Katy's visage was spectacularly ordinary. Not ugly, just plain. In accordance with the astrological omens, Virgo, I urge you to do what Russell Brand did: expose the reality that lies beneath and behind the glamorous illusion, either in yourself or anywhere else you find a need.

boy humor

then on my way back into the city, I smelled gas, and watched the needle on the gas tank float downward and I thought "I'm gonna die" - the hysterical in my yoga pajamas routine that I didn't have to fake at all sure got me that loaner FAST - then I was almost calm until I realized I'd left my briefcase and cell phone in my car which has since been towed God Knows Where . . .

got the car back - it sounds like I'm driving a clothes dryer full of rusty pennies, scrape scrape k klink k klunk scrape - so here's the plan: I'm gonna take it back and bitch my head off and/or cry, depending on which my gut tells me will get me the rental flea for free as a loaner for my trouble, and I'm gonna keep taking it back until it has cost Allstate the equivalent of $7k, which will put us even (minus, of course, the years' worth of pointless premiums); then I'm going to buy a new car, probably the same kind, cz even though it's f'd up now my Suzuki feels WAY better than the rented Kia Flea that I've been driving for a miserable month . . .

. . . and now I'm going to drink a glass of wine and then another glass of wine, then feel sorry for myself for the car f'over I'm getting and the pervasive dump-on at work and personally I've gotten lately and for the armpit I'm missing which would be nice to have just for once when shit sucks which 2011 has nothing but done, pretty much.

my car is totalled - someone at the shop let that slip today finally, "they usually total it when the frame's bent cz the alignment can't really be fixed ya know", as a snippy defensive stance to my complaining that nearly a month later I still don't have a car. I go to the insurance agent's office, I tell the agent this, she disappears behind a door, comes back and says "good news, it's fixed, they just forgot to call you - you can pick it up tomorrow". I stare at her. I say, um, I owe over 6 grand on this car, I can't trade in a lemon or drive a taco shaped car . . . She says, o don't worry the repairs are guaranteed. I ask what that means exactly - like, I pick it up and it starts making funny noises or a tire falls off next week, I can come back and say hey the car isn't right (?) Well, only the repairs they made are gauranteed, she says, alight with illogic. If they couldn't actually fix it then that wouldn't be a REPAIR, so it wouldn't be guaranteed. Would you like the national customer service number? If it breaks down on the way home tomorrow, can I call you and you come get it and fix it orrr how do I prove the "repair" you just did is the why the car breaks down on the way home or next week - I'm just wondering how the bullshit goes exactly. Would you like the national customer service number? No, I'm standing here in your office, looking at the person to whom I've been paying thousands and thousands of dollars in insurance premiums for years for apparently no good reason, I think I have everything I need right here . . . and hey now I'm just wonderin', if my house burns down, do you pitch a tent on the char hole and call it good as new or what? etc etc etc . .

"cain and abel went to mcdonalds and smoked a bag of weed"

You are a classic flirt and you may have to turn the temperature down a notch or two because you'll be hot hot hot today Virgo! Your energy is well into overload. You'll be sassy, spontaneous and highly attractive and there will be no better time than today for some extra-curricular recreation.

from the Garden State soundtrack

listening to: dar williams ft ani defranco, comfortably numb

WEEKEND LOVE FORECAST:ARIES: Avoid those who seem unapproachable or standoffish. There's a good reason for their closed attitude. TAURUS: You don't try to impress the authority figure -- you don't need to. GEMINI: You'll be making a forgiveness speech, and you'll feel much better after it is delivered. CANCER: There is no way to eliminate the competition unless you jump into the game yourself and compete. LEO: You do not need anything from your romantic counterpart, and that is what makes the situation so appealing to both parties. VIRGO: It will be important to give special attention when your loved one enters or leaves your presence. LIBRA: You are intrigued by situations very different from your own scene. SCORPIO: You change your look and enjoy the reaction you get. SAGITTARIUS: On a date, agreement is luckier than arguing. CAPRICORN: In time people discover the genuine wonder of you. (Meanwhile, get new tires.) AQUARIUS: Your loyalty will be rewarded, though that's not why you stand up for your friends. You do it out of your own moral sense. PISCES: You dress and behave in a way that sets you apart from the crowd and will therefore get the attention you so deserve.

huh. (thoughtful pause.) nice.

morning giggle: the first line

plot shmot, Green Hornet in 3D was a blast! take my advice, hang out w a boy circa age 11 - still little enough to be totally adorable, but big enough that you can ignore the 'parental discretion' thing. booyah! up next, by whatever order of release date: green lantern, transformers (more than meets the eye la la), thor, priest (looks awesome) . . .

coolio - gangsta paradise - from the Green Hornet sountrack

How long would it take to know the woman, his woman? Two years living with her before he learned to identify the particular spasm as her coming? He would enter her throbbing, and she would close around him. And somewhere, as their hips swung, the bottoms of her feet stroking the fat of his calves, her thunderous buns rocking in the seat of his palms, a muscle would clutch at him, and he'd feel the tremor begin at the tip of his joint. Two years it took to distinguish her tremor from his pleasure, her orgasm from the vibration in his hands, in his calves, the quivering in his tightened balls. Two years before her calling out his name in that way would not catch him by suprise. How much longer would it take to learn all of Velma? . . She veered sharply to avoid things he did not see. - Toni Cade Bambara, The Salt Eaters

Black Keys, She's Long Gone, "The Dilemma" soundtrack

(all greys and blacks and whites, with a ruched skirt and patent leather black kneehigh boots and hornrimmed glasses - I'm a good little worker and I have some cute outfits for it)

It's always a bit of a shock to my system, the first 12-hour workday back, kinda like electroshock therapy only different (but very similar). I got lots and lots and lots of work done plus goodwill reunions with coworkers; and I was happy, not woo hoo thrilled, but Fine. Except for the random pointless punishment on a (thankfully brief) personal relationship break, the day and I were both Perfectly Fine. I can see why FPH goes this route (until the hamster wheel exhaustion effect kicks in). I wish I were never his brief punishing break when he was exhausted and spent down to nothing left to be upset about, but I am that. (sometimes) (and vice versa).

Now, I'm gonna have a hot hot shower, then practice my drum for a short spurt before the nightnight tuck ins.

The celestial alignment makes this a very reassuring time in terms of your personal relationships. If you have been experiencing a period of instability, then you may find events give you real encouragement, which you have not felt for a long while. You need to feel emotionally secure, as you can't relax if you sense there is any kind of difficulty present. Today you CAN relax, however.


dirt bike annie - whatever makes you happy LOVE this

The vibration from the planets is bringing you a deeper understanding of why someone close tends to behave in a certain way Virgo. Up until now you may have been puzzled by their attitude, which seemed to show a combination of genuine affection and indifference. As you allow your mind to drift over this issue, a realization will dawn that will help you to see just what is going on.

"gris-gris on your doorstep"

This is Legba. I might post some deep shit about him tomorrow, but I'm tipsy right now. So, whatever, here's Legba lol, he's cool.

VIRGO Either metaphorically or actually, your gas tank is on empty. [o hell yeah] Instead of running on fumes to see how far you'll get, refuel. And in the future, make the halfway mark your new "empty."

all easier said than done

If you puke til you hyperventilate, you get carbon dioxide poisoning, which makes your hands fist up and you can't open them and then your arms stiffen into a curl and you look just like you're having a stroke. Ears taught me that today.

Nothing like 7 hours in the emergency room to brighten things up even more.

(weepy)

sick kid. sore body. sad and depressed. how are you, I wonder.

hurts

:'(

ache, head to toe

out a car for 2? weeks and $1000 deductible not including the rental (that smells like ass) . . . 2011 is great so far. you'll have to get in line to shit on me at this rate.